I’m deciding to end it.
It’s being decided slowly, but everyday the urge to end my life gets stronger and stronger.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I am physically sick from this depression.
God, where are you?
Can you hear me?
Are you even real?
Why are you ignoring me?
I need to know you exist.
It’s making me physically ill.
I’m terrified of death, but i know that if i kill myself, i wouldn’t even know i died because the pain will be gone.
I know all these worries will be gone.
My depression will be gone.
I will be gone.
Please God, if you exist, if i actually have a purpose, show me.
Show me that […]