my dad died yesterday at 4:00am morning yesterday and since then my brother marc has been trying to decide whether to do suicide and without my brother here to comfort me i dont know what i am going to become i know i will become depressed and even be put into a mental intuishion and i really dont want that because i know for a fact that my brother will do it he has been trying to avoid everyone and has been trying to overdose because of he knows that life without dad will only cause him depression i have never seen my brother so […]
im fat inside by a lot but when i look in the mirror im skinny as fuck, i hate it the feeling of eating makes me just want to cry over it and then when i think about self harm i want to cut, the amount of calerioes i have to eat for my family i dont want them to know that hate eating because i feel so fat i feel like im eating so much, its the demons in my head i cant live like this any more i want to die but i know the people that love me will miss me i […]
for all those cutters out there i know this addition i know what you feel im going through the same thing and the only thing thats keeping me going is my friends and music, music is always going to be my world no matter what even if you dont have friends or people around you music will always be your true friend whatever music you listen to there will always be a place for music, it will help you and keep you going you will be able to self harm no matter what because of that additiion but music will help you a bit more […]
do you ever have those dreams that make you stop sleeping i have them i only 3 hours sleep because of them they haunt me, my being my soul my brain my emotions my heart my whole life, i cant do much now i cut because of them i cut because sad and depressed is there any way of getting out of this black hole or am i stuck in this hole forever is this going to my life is it going to forever or short term but i don’t know whether i want it or not i’m scared and relieved at the same time. […]
its painful after you cut, it hurts painfully. i wanted to stop my sister from hurting me but if i even stand up for myself she will cut into me so much deeper then she would and then i wont stand a chance if i get cut deeper, i want to stay alive because i have a boiyfriend and friends but im terrifried of fighting for it because she will tell my dad and then i will get beaten again i hate life but i have so much to live for .
im scared to cut again not because of the pain but because i might loose my boyfriend i love him sooo much but the thing is he wants me to get an abortion if i was pregnet and now he will leave me if i carry on cutting but i dont want to loose him so what shall i do to stop self-harm??
i know i always wright about the bad stuf but my friends and family want me to stop the self-harm so does anyone have any ideas on what to do.
i know i conderdict my self but i need to do this for the love of my friends and i know they don’t care whether imma cut again but i need to do it i mean i might not be alive in a few weeks because of self harming i have cut along my wrists 12+ times and i still havent died, so does anyone know any help for me?
when you feel that much at ease when you slit your wrists with that balde and you cant help but to do another cut you just have to feel the blood drip down onto the floor of the carpet in your bedroom and you feel like you have just let go of all your problems. so would this feeling be the same as dying making a big deep cut on the inside of my wrists and putting on that white ball gown and running the cold tap in the bath and you get in there and you feel the blood still dripping and that water […]
why do you treat my life so shit when i havent done anything wrong why is it that you gave me a shitty friend that just fucking makes like even more harder why? this isn’t what i planned when i was younger i was supposed to grow up and be that little good girl but FUCK NO i didn’t fucking get that i fucking got beaten to near death and what did you do nothing you let me go to hospital fighting for my life because i got beaten as a child by my own fucking parents that thought i was a mistake but ya […]
i didn’t want to fail but my friends found me in the most unlikly place i thought to cut, i slit my wrists and then passed out i can’t remember anything else but i remember waking up in the hospital with doctors checking me i was out for two days but i realised that i put so much pressure on my family and friends, but i will try my best to stop cutting i mean if i have children when im older i don’t want them to keep staring at my arms. So yes bully me cuz of my scars bully me cuz i cut […]
that big question whether you going to stop cutting but then you think about it you really don’t want to stop the cutting because it’s like something that has became you
and we all understand that it’s dangerous but the thing is we don’t want to be reminded what’s going to happen, thats why we do it because we already know what the risk is.
but the biggest question i have is are we ever gonna stop cutting? why is it that we feel so deeply into cutting and have to get into arguments over it? is it worth the cutting and make our parents upset or […]
from the age 3-11 i was abused by my mom and dad, they used to lock me in the celler and keep me there i used to get whipped on my back and i wouldnt get fed till 9 at night no breakfeast i was bearly living i was named disgraced i even have it scarred into my skin from my dad my brothers couldnt do anything i couldnt talk to my brothers or sister till i was old enough to leave the house im now 14 suffering from self-harm but that is the only thing for my relief, i have no idea why my […]
whats the point in hurting us more, you wont be helping us if you make us cry on here if you dont let us get our friendly advice your just making it worse.
no im not putting the blame on you but the thing is the dissing needs to stop because its not what people need its just bullying.
when you tell me that you hate my cuts you cry each time you see them we cuddle for a while untill you have stopped the cutting and then when i say its going to be alright i have to cross my fingers behind your back i love you babe but this self-harming is apart of me im sorry for the amount of tears that has came out your beautiful brown-green eyes baby i never wanted to hurt you but please dint make me choose between you and the self-harming i love you and want to stay with you your my life, my world. baby […]
why do people make such a big deal of self-harmers if they dont want to cut then so be it but others want to because the emotional pain gets too much for them. What is so wrong with being a a cutter some dont want to be a self harmer but it is so hard to stop the pain relif . so tell me something if they want to cut or kill themselves what is so wrong with just allowing them to do it.
why do poeple drag us down? why is it that when we are friends with people and the thrid one is always bitchy? dont get me wrong i love her but the thing is it isnt a friendship if its full of arguing but the thing is pretending to self harm just to fit in isnt the thing to do thats just gonna make the real cutters in the friendship group cut even more! i dont complain because realloy i couldnt give two f***s because they need to know what to do before i rant at them, i feel so down when i cut i […]
if we stopped cutting would we be able to be us? if we continued to cut and we went to far would people miss us? if we went mute would people still be there for us? most of us cant stop the cutting and some dont want to but can you really blame us for being us we dont moan at you if we dont like what you do but its who we are now no matter what
some people describe pain as physical when youve just ran a marthon and your legs are hurting but everyone has emotional but some more the ones that are mean cause us cutters to cut even more, no they dont force you to cut your self but the feel of cutting when someone says horrible things to you is when you feel you must cut its them who bring cutters to life not just the person but the words they speak some may be true but most the time its fake they just want to see some other person upset and in pain. it dont matter […]
i cant believe i didnt tell my family about the stuff i did to my body. i didnt do anything wrong yet no cares im just the one left in the dark lonely corner and yet no one will talk to me and now they just want to beat me up. i have no one to turn to now, not even my mom will look at me in the eyes anymore just because off im the emo kid in the family i have no friends that like me all they do is look at me when im in pain and tears are coming out my […]
ive had enough of live but im too worried that my friends wouldnt come to my funneral but you know what fuck it i cant be bothered anymore to give a care to the world fair enough i’ll join my grandparents the only ones that even cared about me my moms dying anyway so it wouldnt make that much of a difference. why did i have to go through this i have scars all over my body and i cant stand to look at my self any longer i have to get my mom to brush my hair because i cant bair to look at […]