I met a boy. He was the best boy I’ve ever been with and now we’ve decided to break up. I guess we didn’t see a future with one another, but fuck did that shit hurt. I gave him a plant when we first started dating, and he asked me if I wanted it back while he proceeded to water his other plants. I don’t think I can remove that image from my brain, realizing that was the last conversation we would have, that would be the last time I saw him. I left him with the plant and I feel like I’ve made the […]
darkestsoul
Did you know that there are over 200 billion planets in our galaxy?
Did you know there are over 100 billion galaxies in our universe?
Did you know that there may be a possibility of there being more than one universe?
We are literally smaller than a grain of sand, do you realize that nothing we’ve done or gone through will matter in 50 years from now?
Everything that’s ever happened to us will mean nothing once we’re gone. It means nothing now, because no matter how much we try to explain our feelings to someone, they will never understand. No matter what we do […]
I’ve been technically doing well, I’ve gotten a job. I don’t completely hate the people I work with nor do I completely hate what I do. I’ve started saving money and have become my own person, I have a bank account! It’s so weird how mundane things can make someone feel so elated. Like shit, I’m finally moving forward.
I still cry every night before I go to sleep, I still feel like an empty shape of air disguised as a human being. I still feel like I’m not doing good enough. However I’m no longer crying about my current situation, I’m crying about everything […]
I’ve been so used to being nonchalant about everything that I can no longer bring myself to care. I literally can’t feel anything but the beat of my heart and the ache of my body every time I take a step.
I need help, I need someone to listen to my entire life story and tell me I’m not crazy. I need a professional to diagnose me with something because i don’t understand how someone can be so empty and not need pills. I can’t fucking breathe the oxygen or feel like vibration of the earth or the soft pelting of the rain outside with […]
Is there light at the end of the tunnel? I’m not sure. It seems there is no end to this soul-wrenching darkness; and that’s exactly what it’s doing to my soul, burning little parts of it as though it were dark smoke blending into a starless sky. I hear whispers in my ears, they say they can help me find the light—I refuse, they light my skin on fire instead. I welcome the smell of rotting flesh and agonizing pain, I hope that my red skin can illuminate the tunnel and help me find my way. I hear them whisper again, coaxing me, telling me […]