I know I posted something a bit ago, but I can’t do this I need help. I’m gonna do something dumb nobodys answering me. The one person whose listening is saying I’m bluffing. I’m not, I’m not stable I’m coming unhinged please I need help nobody’s seeing my pain, I almost feel invisible.
I’m alone with my thoughts again and I have no where to go even in a crowded room or next to my boyfriend I feel so distant and unlove even when I’m told I’m beautiful I feel so ugly even if someone sincerely says they care about me I turn around and say I’m unlove and unwanted. I’ve always hated being this way, but I don’t know how to change. The only thing I want to do right now is cut all ties and end my life, but I know its not right to think or even say. I’m just so tired, confused, and depressed […]
So for a while now i’ve been questioning my sexuality. everyone calls me a lesbian, dyke, and many other names. i don’t even know if i like guys now. i’ve been fighting with myself telling myself don’t prove them right you are straight but every guy i’ve dated hasn’t seemed like anything more than friends to me. this question needs an answer soon because i cant keep questioning myself. anyone who has been in this situation, and has it figured out could you please give me some advice .
yet another failed attempt apparently something wants me to stay on this god damned world even the doctors said im lucky to be alive…
I have failed you all and this world it’s time for me to say GoodBye…
Soon enough it’ll be the end. Soon I wont wake up. I don’t think my mind is going to be changed i have decide that it will soon be the end. When i say “Good bye” will the even think twice or will they just think i’m leaving the conversation… when I say good bye it’ll mean forever. I will only regret hurting the ones i love even though they don’t love me back at least to my knowledge.
sorry just need to rant some today
When you promise me that you will always be there for me but when i need you most you ignore me. i try to talk to you in person, but you don’t even give me a single glance. Its as if i don’t exist but yet you still message me once in awhile just because you fell guilty. you saw me burst into tear but yet you ignored me. everyone ignored me. I ABSOLUTELY HATE BEING LIED TO…… I’ve been through hell and back and now im back in hell and all of you have given up on me. […]
im tired of feeling alone and broke inside. Im tired of crying myself to sleep every night. Im tired of over thinking everything. im done with being that person everyone hates. im tired of sliding that razor across my skin just to be sure im alive. im done feeling worthless and unwanted. i hate feeling like all those words i am called daily are true. im tired of being put down. i honestly hate getting drunk just to cope but its the only thing that helps. im tired of being depressed, anorexic, and having extreme anxiety. im tired of hating myself. Can it be the […]
i think i quit….. i’m just done…. fuck life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lq3iagZzloUÂ – are you happy now_ megan and liz
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ksdt_9tuP0I– scars_ papa roach
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fksp8J73GUw– pain_ three days grace
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QhJ6bE4z5vs – last resort_ papa roach
^ These songs sum things up a bit i guess
Don’t Hate Me
iv’e never done anything to you
so don’t hate me because you don’t know me
you can’t judge me by my appearance
just like you cant judge a book by its cover
i’m better on the inside so just give me a chance
just like that book that looks boring but was actually an amazing book
now i know i’m not beautiful […]
Back in June i told myself i’m done self harming. Today after almost 3 months i relapsed. Its getting harder and harder to stop cutting, but the saddest part is that nobody understands. They don’t realize how much pain someones in when that blade slides across their own skin. I hate cutting yet i love it and i’m not sure i’m going to be able to stop again…..
To whomever will listen,
2 years ago my mom passed away of an accidental overdose ever since then my life has been awful. Before my mom passed away it was crap, but it got worse. She past away when  i was in 7th grade it seems like yesterday. In 9th grade during a school break i was alone watching my neighbors house for her since she trusts me and she was away for the week. During the time she was gone my friend offered to get me fucked up i turned her down because i wasn’t ready to fuck up, but just a day later everything […]