we are born into this world with other people all around us to delude us into thinking we are not alone, but the truth is, its all an illusion and we are all alone.
Seriously though, I can finally wear short sleeves without the anxiety of having my scars visible to everyone. I swear this is not an advertisement, I’m just trying to help people who have scars feel safe wearing short sleeves like they used to
So I’m almost positive most of you here have watched bleach at one point of your life so here’s some nostalgia cuz this auto played on Youtube for me when I was reading an article.
you wake up every night not knowing if it will be your last, you don’t actually know what your mind will force you to do today or tomorrow. you may cry yourself to sleep wanting to live so badly but your parents are dead, you are unemployed, you have no friends, you have bad self-esteem, you flunk your grades, your wife cheated on you, and your peers make fun of you all the time both online and in real life. you try your best to improve that stuff but it always ends up going wrong, you try for years and years… still nothing. one day […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0Z4ywyCHRk
which asshole keeps flagging my posts? I talked about how I attempted suicide with cyanide and suddenly it got removed the next day. WHY? I’m not even violating the rules I’m just sharing my stories
I don’t want people to understand me, I don’t want to have a better life, I don’t want to succeed in life, I don’t want friends, all I want is to die. Is it so hard to understand? no amount of love, happiness, or anti-depressants will stop me from fantasizing about death.
Ive attempted 19 times this year alone. hanging, jumping out of a car, anti-freeze, bleach, water intoxication, wrist slashing you call it ive done it. Did I ever regret it? not at all. I take thousands of dollars worth of anti-depressants and I’ve gone through 3 different therapists over the course of 2 years and I have also been in a psych ward 7 times this year. At first it was because a lot was going on in my life but now its just an obsession and I cant stop attempting. any idea on wtf is going on?
the title says it all. Drink 3-4 gallons of water and your history. or at least that’s what I though would happen. Ive tried this method 4 times and all that happened in those 4 times was both vomiting and lots of trips to the bathroom. The closest ive ever gotten to succeed with this method was the first time I tried it. I got blurry vision and confusion which made me glad because I knew it meant it was working so I drank up even more. I headed to bed and I either fell asleep or was getting in and out of consciousness every […]
whew what a title right? It was around July, I think I was on my either 16th or 17th attempt( currently on 22) So anyhow I was contemplating suicide again(like every other day) I was inside a car with my parents and we were headed to a theater and decided today I will jump out of the car. I was waiting till my parents drive to the highway to jump but then I remembered my mom doesn’t drive in highways out of fear. At this point the car was going 75 kms so I decided it was good enough. Adrenaline rushed through me as I […]
It happened after my 7th attempt, I was desperate and intrigued to Attempt again. My parents suggested we head to the mall, on my way to the car I found something that got me excited. There was a big Anti-freeze container sitting outside In our neighbors doorsteps. Now Ive been researching my crap for 3 years so I knew damn well how dangerous that thing is. The next day after that I told my parents I’m taking walk outside, little did you know I went to grab that antifreeze and dashed as fast I could without getting seen by anyone. I went behind the church […]
It was a dark night, April 14th 2017. I was having problems with stress, anxiety, and rejections. On that night I woke up 4 in the morning and decided I’m gonna die today. I went down to the basement, hanged a noose in one of the rafters. then I kicked the chair, gasping for air. It would’ve been 5 seconds till I passed out, completely painless. From there, I fell into a beautiful dream where I was in school with actual friends beside me(I have no friends in real life) we were talking and laughing all over. My crush started a conversation with me in […]