i know i havent been on in forever…. its because ive been busy with my life. i finally stop cutting after four fuckn years.. yet I just started to cut again but I finally got someone who cares I fell into to depression once again . I started smoking weed everyday and drinking every weekend and I didn’t give a fuck about anything but there’s this girl who is helping me sooo much but it’s like I still wanna cut .. I still wanna smoke and I still wanna drink and I still wanna die and I still want to just get away from this […]
my life has got so much better. i love it. i got my first love back and everything is going amazing . so no more suiccide and I’m off this website bye bitchez. 🙂
you kno what .. you wanna know what really fuckn sucks is when you think you can trust someone but they backstab you .. are you fuckn serious right now .. i guess this is gods way of showing me who i need in my life and who i dont ..
fuck friendship fuck love bc i get hurt in the end anyways
people think that i can always handle their words well guess whati fuckn cant . i cant handle people calling me fat worthless stupid ugly or them tell me you should die nobody wants you here nobody will miss you if you are gone no one will care . it gets to be to much . i cant handle this anymore i just want to forget everything the pain everything . i dont get why people think its okay to do that to me or others . ive lost so many people .. its been five years since my bestfriend killed herself for the same […]
well update is I am taken by an amazing girl .I know I said I miss Stacie and we did get back together but broke up on Tuesday. well now I got a new girl who I adore . she is amazing funny thing is tht my new girl is my best friend … weird right .. but she is amazn and so adorable she is really cute when she gets hyper . ive slipped up and cut a couple times but im fine now b/c of her.
ok…i know i havent posted in awhile….so the update……….. i moved back to my moms to only find out my exgf was alive and she went out with my best friend…….i loved her so much and she hurt me like that……my best friend thinks that deep down she still loves me but just doesnt want to admit it and i really just dont care anymore….i use to go out with this girl named stacie and she broke my heart….she was everything to me….i dont understand why it happens to me…..well lme and my exgf got to be friends and everything and stacie was like her […]
Back u guys. My ex girlfriend Is back in my Life.i Feel happier Now and i don’t know how to explain it but still she is back in da life with me.we are just friends and are so happy.i do care about her.i Also care bout her Girl.well yup.
suicide isnt a joke nor is it a game.thats really fucked up when u make fun of people who cut and shit.ISNT NOT A JOKE OR A GAME stop being fvcking retards and make fun of people who r suicidual or were suicidual….. its not fun i know because now ppl at school ask me whats that on your arm and i say scars and they ask for what and i dont tell them because im afraid of getting bullied!so i know how it feels to get rumors spread about me nd shit because i have been at this school for about 5 months and […]
all of my life i have felt really dumb and i didnt know what to do.it got worst in fifth grade people bullied me and made fun of me i really didnt understand why… until one day i couldnt take it anymore thats when self harming came in…. for three full years i have self harmed and it is very hard to stop. i finally 3 months ago.i never have ben this happy.all of my life…… i was a depressed little girl until 3 months ago.im set free. finally i know why i was depressed because of my past and what i have seen.from a […]
i am close to only a few people.i cant get close to anymore people.they will just end up leaving me and hurting me like the rest.the are just not nice anymore.i blame my ex’s for making me have this fear of getting close to people.i hate the fact that i have the fear.i need to let go of that,but it doesnt look like tht is going to be happening anytime soon. SOMETIMES…..i feel like no one really knows me or my life or what i have been through.they only know my name not my story so stop being so damn mean to me and just […]
have you guys a realized you have a fear of something or someone because of what they did to you….
well i do i have a fear of getting close to people because im scared they will leave me! it alway comes true and it scares me to death because…..im getting close to alot of people but the as soon as it starts to happen i stop myself because of my ex-gf and ex-bf i got close to them aND THEY BOTH LEFT ME AFTER WE BROKE UP AND BECAME FRIENDS THEY LEFT ME!IM DONE WITH REALTIONSHIPS FOR AWHILE!
i have been happier then ever.suicide isnt a thought anymore.finally i dont have to always try and get my mind of trying to kill myself.when the thoughts are taken away.listening to music alwayed helped but now im starting to realize i need to forgive and forget and let go of my past and stop living in the past because if i dont i wont be able to let go
i have become bored.i have become depressed again.there are times where i think if i get drunk or high it will go away but then it all goes away and once again i feel the pain.if you have ever did what i did to your family you know its hurts.i use to think my mom didtn care or love me.i alway thought she hated me and that i was a mistake.i honestly dont know what the hell i was thinking.when my mom found me and ishe looked at my right arms she couldnt believe her eyes.she saw 32 fresh cuts and didnt know why i […]
i am truly sorry if my last post offended you.i never meant to offend you.well its been two or three weeks since i tried and commit suicide. i feel so stupid because i tried because of just some fvcking stupid shit that i did and because she wants to be really mean and say everything ismy fault when it never was. now i understand what parents mea by if she loves or cares about you she wouldn’t want to hurt you.
if we all take a stand and help people in this world to stop self-harming then the suicide rate and self harming rate will go down. right now the suicide rate is really high. i pray that it goes down. i know a really cute guy and he was pronounced dead at 6:02pm last night in my own city and I cant believe it and he was so cute and hot but he ot bullied and he couldn’t tke it anymore for all the people who say only ugly people commit suicide that ain true. thats a bullshit lie. i know because this cute guy […]
i have been on here for a couple of days but i deal with the same thing you guys deal with…….i am stuggling to not try and commit suicide even thoe it hards i get thru it.i have learn its not worth it nd nobody is worth my blood or me dying.if you ever need someone to talk to just comment below and i will help you i promise or i will do my best to try and help you.
so many people think it is funny to make someone kill theirselves but it aint