really…..why….

ok…i know i havent posted in awhile….so the update……….. i moved back to my moms to only find out my exgf was alive and she went out with my best friend…….i loved her so much and she hurt me like that……my best friend thinks that deep down she still loves me but just doesnt want to admit it and i really just dont care anymore….i use to go out with this girl named stacie and she broke my heart….she was everything to me….i dont understand why it happens to me…..well lme and my exgf got to be friends and everything and stacie was like her sister and my ex-gf just wanted me happy so she didnt care about who i went out with.funny thing is she is the reason we broke up. well 1 week ago i found out that stacie was “dead” well……. the next day i found out that it was all a lie she wasnt DEAD. she was alive but she was just in the hospital….like really…i cried my eyes out all night when i found out she was dead i wouldnt talk to no body and i just hurt.me and stacie dont even talk anymore.myex-gf and my best friend keep saying that stacie does still love you but she doesnt want to hurt you again…..well i keep telling them tha tif she really loved me maybe she would talk to me and tell me she is okay but she hasnt so guess what she doesnt love me the way i love her….. someone once tld me that even if its hard then let the people who hurt you the most go…….even if yu are inlove or u love them and care for them.i have let my ex-gf and stacie go it was hard because deep down i know i willl alway love stacie but as for my ex-gf it was a mistake telling her i still loved her bc i know i dont i never will love her again…..she put me thru hell……people use to text me saying my ex-gf grace is dead.then the next minute she would be alive and i would be all happy but it happened like everyday. so i alway feltlike she rathered die thenbe with me.so she messed up by wanting to do that all the time.now her and my best friend argue all the time and they dont know what to do…my best friend is scared to dump her bc of her friend they may hurt her.grace on the other hand want to marry precious (best friend). except she doesnt know what i know and i feel bad but at the same time my best friend is tired of all the arguing.i promised i will support her thru everything.