eternaldarkness

the best things happen to the shittiest people and the worst things happen to good people, or the most depressed/vulnerable people.

Do you believe in karma or justice? I can’t believe in that anymore after decades of being on Earth and consistently seeing the good get punished and the evil get rewarded. Or the ones with already good lives keep having good things happen to them and the ones who are already bad off just keeps getting shit piled on them, time and again. Not just to me but I see it in others.

Now it’s not 100% of the time but way too […]

The 10 Happiest Countries in the World
https://www.cntraveler.com/gallery/the-10-happiest-countries-in-the-world

1. Finland. For the fourth year in a row, Finland is number one when it comes to happiness.
2. Denmark. Denmark remained in the number two spot this year. …
3. Switzerland. …
4. Iceland. …
5. Netherlands. …
6. Norway. …
7. Sweden. …
8. Luxembourg. …
9. New Zealand
10. Austria

Damnit, why wasn’t I born in any of those countries? -_-

So tired of being depressed and miserable.
So tired of being tired…

where we had easy access to suicide- where everyone who wanted to die could- what would that world look like?

1- I need more money. A guaranteed enough amount so I don’t have to worry about how I can afford this or that, or go out and do this or that.
2- I need real friends. I need love (a significant other). I need people that actually care about me.

3- If I have the money and means, my health would improve. I still won’t be anywhere near 100% but it would be much better (talking about physical health here, not even talking mental health).

Right now it’s a circle of depression- bc I’m sick, I can’t make money/more money. […]

Not that I am actively suicidal *right now,* but I am generally suicidal 24-7 bc there is no purpose nor any meaning to my life. I have tried to find one but to no avail.

What is the point of living? Or rather the point to MY living?

I’m not religious, so no comfort from living for a “higher power” or whatever.
I haven’t spawned any kids, so I don’t have to stay or nurture any non-existent beings.
I haven’t done anything meaningful in life- I haven’t created anything, saved any lives, etc. I am not spectacular in any way (maybe spectacularly […]

https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/politics-news/americans-are-unhappiest-they-ve-been-50-years-poll-finds-n1231153

The actual study and report aside, does anyone find the picture funny? The first thing I thought of was: “ha! imagine if an alien saw this from above. What would they think about us humans?” (say they don’t know what covid-19 is)

Is there a way to change the password to something we want or that can actually remember? Right now it’s set that if you want to change the password, SP autogenerates one for you. It’s super long and impossible to remember. I remember SP used to let us have our own passwords in the past.

I have a general hatred and disdain for the human species. First, we ruin the planet. And second, most people are evil, shitty, selfish, manipulative, opportunistic, liars, users, etc. Sure, there are a small number of good people, but overall, most humans are shitty. And somehow during my whole life I seem to encounter the bad ones and very few good ones. Of course my viewpoint is biased toward my own life experiences (but isn’t that the case for all of our viewpoints/thoughts/beliefs)?

The ones who’ve had nice childhoods, good family, little to no adversity, pain, or poverty and […]

Since I was a kid, I’ve had SO much fucking suffering, pain and hardship. Now that I’m an adult and middle age, life has only gotten WORSE over time, not better. How I wish I was never born. All this f*ing suffering, for what?

So Titles are back. But what is this Subtitle thing? I don’t see what I wrote on the subtitles line on the posted posts anywhere.

I see that paragraph delineations are still not back, so everything is still one long run-on post without proper spacing.

We also got a new Post Views. I suppose it’s nice to see how many views, but I suppose it’s also crushing when you see that no one (or very few) have clicked on your post. But considering most posts get very few comments, I suppose seeing how many views is nicer.

All these decades of pain and agony could have been avoided had I never been born. No doubt there is more agony to come. Especially when old age comes.

JFC isn’t that the worst hell- slowly dying of old age diseases and problems. That sh*t actually scares me. Has anyone watched documentaries on old people dying? Where they film the death in stages, 1 yr before, 6mo before, 1 mo before, 1 week before, etc. Anyway, I find it f*cking cruel that they won’t allow us to just take a pill or give us an injection.

How […]

Anyone else feel like they’re constantly being targeted by assholes? Manipulators, users, narcissists, etc. I feel like bc I’m vulnerable, I’m like blood in water that attracts sharks. Bad people are great at sniffing out vulnerable/weak/nice people to take advantage of. People are always trying to use me or take advantage of me in some way. Or try to control me (narcs). And I’m fucking sick and tired of it.

My whole life bad things happen to me over and over and over again. Move to a new city? Same shit. Get rid of all the bad people I […]

What is there to live for?

I wish my life didn’t suck so much.

I don’t have anything- bad health, little money, no job (disabled), no purpose, no partner, no real friends, I’m all alone with no reason to go on living other than the fact that we can’t easily and painlessly take our own lives.

I can’t enjoy anything bc I’m too sick to! Every day I wake up tired and fatigued, little energy to do anything. Can barely do the basics (shower, brushing teeth, etc) without feeling wiped out. And no, I have physical issues so it’s not just “go out for a walk, go exercise, go be […]

I am slowly dying.
Dying from the inside out.
I’ve lost my purpose, desires, goals. OOMPH.
I feel I am but a clump of dirt, or sand, simply whisked away when the wind blows.

It is a horrible feeling, when you’ve lost who you were.
What am I now? Nothing. At least nothing functional. Nothing happy. Nothing resembling the ME that I once was. There is no more spark. Only a zombie remains.

I have tried to get it back for years, but after 15 years, not only have I not been able to get it back, but that light […]

still unable to make titles on posts.
SP ADMINS: please fix, thanks.

-edit:
i finally tried a workaround a commenter posted below, but it shouldn’t be this complicated just to put a title on our posts.
-edit:
also unable to show paragraph breaks in our posts on the main SP page. it will show when we are editing it and when you click on our post, but not on the main page. It shows everyone’s posts without the paragraph breaks, so all our words appear to be one long paragraph.

test

does anybody know what happened to the title area?
I can write the body of the post but I can’t seem to write the title.
It used to be just on the top, below the Permalink in ‘Edit Post.’
But I don’t see it anymore.

Is this happening to anyone else?
Can anyone help?

Thanks.

Who else has given up hope that they’ll “get better” or not be depressed anymore? After 40 years of suffering on this Earth, I don’t have any hope that “things will get better” or that “things will change” or that I will no longer be depressed and live happy. If it hasn’t happened after 40 fucking years, why would it suddenly change after year 50? Sigh.

Anyone else on this forever depressed boat?