I wish my life didn’t suck so much.
I don’t have anything- bad health, little money, no job (disabled), no purpose, no partner, no real friends, I’m all alone with no reason to go on living other than the fact that we can’t easily and painlessly take our own lives.
I can’t enjoy anything bc I’m too sick to! Every day I wake up tired and fatigued, little energy to do anything. Can barely do the basics (shower, brushing teeth, etc) without feeling wiped out. And no, I have physical issues so it’s not just “go out for a walk, go exercise, go be productive!” I wish I could be productive but I physically am unable to, which takes a toll on my mental wellbeing bc I LIKE being productive and feel like sh*t when I’m not doing anything.
My life is wasting away bc nothing gets done. Nothing gets done bc I have no energy to do anything. Life is passing me by and I’m too sick to do much of anything. I’ve been sick for so long, since I was young. I feel ROBBED of a life. A REAL LIFE.
Anyway, I feel like such a sh*t. My body feels like sh*t every day and I wish I had SOMETHING going on for me in my life. I have nothing and no one. NO. ONE. I’m all alone here and I can barely take care of myself.
How do I go on with life when I don’t even have my own body anymore? My body doesn’t work anymore. It’s all constant pain, constant fatigue, and if I so much as eat something “wrong” (which could be anything and is all the time) my body goes into a tailspin?
FML FML FML
I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR THIS SH*T