I am slowly dying.
Dying from the inside out.
I’ve lost my purpose, desires, goals. OOMPH.
I feel I am but a clump of dirt, or sand, simply whisked away when the wind blows.
It is a horrible feeling, when you’ve lost who you were.
What am I now? Nothing. At least nothing functional. Nothing happy. Nothing resembling the ME that I once was. There is no more spark. Only a zombie remains.
I have tried to get it back for years, but after 15 years, not only have I not been able to get it back, but that light is dwindling even more. I am fading more and more into the abyss.