I cannot believe that it has come to this, again.
I need to go in again, otherwise I will be dead in 24h. I have a time with my psych consult tomorrow afternoon. I just need to keep myself alive long enough to get there. After many, many months it has come down to this again. It will be my 8th time in, but this time I hope they hold me long enough to get the help I need. I cannot live like this, can definitely die, but need out some way or another.
Fuck, this is so so so hard.