Tomorrow i have therapy and wbat I’m going to say?
Im depressed, did nothing the entire week bc Im depressed and I dont know how to get better
I wanna sleep. Only that. Dont want to talk to you madam, just sleep!!
:/
Tomorrow i have therapy and wbat I’m going to say?
Im depressed, did nothing the entire week bc Im depressed and I dont know how to get better
I wanna sleep. Only that. Dont want to talk to you madam, just sleep!!
:/
Im depressed again. This time is bad.
I need medication but I dont want to take medicine and besides that I dont have money to pay for it. Go to the doctor and say what? “Doctor Im depressed bc I dont want to live anymore and I dont believe in life or this world, do you have a magical pill for me?” ??????
Im trying to go to the gym. Exercise every day makes me feel better enough to live again. The problem is that it’s very cold here and I dont feel well when it’s cold, my depression gets worse.
Anyway, I’ll sleep a bit more before […]
How is possible to change ?
Im tired of living.
Ive tried many things and I failed in everything. When things are going well something external overtakes me like a high speed train. Then I get a long time to recover.
Im so tired I can keep working, studying and reinventing myself.
I dont wanna do anything, just think bad things, procrastinate and wish to commit suicide.
🙁
TV and social media show us the world through filters there all people are happy all families are structured. But where are the dysfunctional people, the poorly structured families, the broken people and the Suiciders like us?
We just don’t exist but we are everywhere and bet on saying we are the majority in this world.
Everyday is a lie Everyday we live a lie. Every day is the collective delusion of the lie.
Im back again bc my wish to die came back today.
I have no family, no friends, no one. I’ve tried to do my best in life being totally alone but I got fed up of being alone and have no hope that it would change.
Loneliness is too hard to bear for so many years!
Sincerely speaking, I should live more 30 years and I cant imagine how to bear so much time of loneliness.
Im fed up with everything and everyone.
Im on therapy but after it I feel bad phisically bc Im trying to solve my biggest frustration in life: life itself.
Im not excited to go on. I wanna break up with my bf and kill myself.
My bf doesnt help me, he wants sex and dont care Im sick. I hate him.
I lost the will to live.
Yesterday I cried very much. All this again. It’s been years of this suffering!
I dont believe in life,try again and all this shit.
I failed. Im a failure. My entire life is a shit. I dont like my life and never did.
I want to die.
Im thinking on a way to do it.
I cant bear anymore, the pain and pretend to everyone I like to be here.
Here I am again!
And again I wish to die after a period pretending life is good and possible. I’m tired of this shit to be honest.
May be if I had someone who could give me a decent burial I would go. I dont know what I’m still doing here. If I die today the rats who live in my roof will eat me but no one will bury me. I deserved at least a funeral and some beautiful words over my coffin.
Pushing myself from one week to another and lying to everyone and myself I have plans and wanna do this and that when to […]
All I wanted was a message so I could forget reality again and pretend everything was fine till it really becomes fine.
What a surprise! I’m back.
In fact there’s no surprise at all. I know very well it’s a cycle: life improves I go away from here, life gets worse I get back here. What a shit! Always the same thing!
I’ve seen the protests on TV and it’s beautiful but at the same time I know nothing will change then I see all those people walking up and down the streets for hours searching something they wont have and that makes me sad. The System doesnt change, its you who are changed by it.
I’m tired and I need a break. Holidays far from here! This coronavirus is […]
May be it’d be better if coronavirus take me and I die.
I’m trapped in quarentine with a person of my family I cant stand.
Meanwhile my beloved is working in a hospital. He will have coronavirus sooner or later and may die bc he’s from risk group.
I cried a lot yesterday ?
After all this pandemia our world wont exist anymore. Everything will be different. I’m not sure I want to see it all, not without him. ?
Bad day…hope it ends soon!
I cried 3 times already.
My soul is hurt. My body hurts. My heart is broken.
But I’m being strong and said nothing to no one.
May be a shower and cut my wrists will help…ha ha ha
I’ve seen what’s happening in China since coronavirus outbreak. So many deaths, suffering of all kind, violence against Chinese citizens, people dying and families cant say goodbye, people being sealed inside their buildings to wait to die, crematoriums working aroind the clock, it’s terrible. No hope in a near future. May be all of us will die infected by this virus or infected by globalization because Economy will be broken worldwide if China break down as we all depend hugely from Chinese products, specially pharmaceuticals. (It means there wont be drugs to kill yourself if China stops)
I have seen videos every day since the coronavirus […]
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