why does everyone always say college is the best time of your life, enjoy it while it lasts. I am in absolute hell, a world that is not made for me and I do not belong here. Every single day when I wake up I struggle through until the night and then dont sleep because I know the sooner I go to sleep the sooner I have to wake up and pretend like I am so freaking happy here. I can not stand college, I can not stand the people here and I can not stand any single thing about it. If one more person […]
The hard times seem to get harder and the good times never seem to get better… I have hope some days but that hope doesnt ever carry over to the days where I need it the most. I wish I could save some of that hope and happiness from the good days and use it when I just want to give up.  I wish pulling myself out of this damn slump was as easy as it was to fall into it. Lifting my head up and carrying on seems easy when said but doing it is the hardest thing imaginable. I never thought I’d end up being […]
 After reading a bunch of new posts today and the comments that everyone has left on them, I am actually saddened by the fact that people care so much about helping strangers but they simply cant help themselves ( I’m not calling anyone out because I am the same exact way). We do not feel as though we have any reason to live, we dont feel like we are of any importance to anyone or that noone would miss us if we were gone but by us living and being supportive of everyone on here, we are saving a life that may not be saved […]
the man who told me he would there to support me and love me forever and help me get through what I am going through just told me that he will be here for me but cant be with me until i get better and that he is going to be seeing other people until then. how is that helping me get better?? how am i supposed to get over being depressed and suicidal when the man i love is out living his life. how am i supposed to get better? i understand i completely fucked up and i hurt him but if you say […]
Please read, I know its long but I could use any help I can get… Two years ago I was in a relationship that ended with physical abuse. I tried to kill myself then and went into therapy.. It help and I stopped going.. but always felt that depression try and come back but I always just fought it off. I have been in an on again off again fling for a year and we just started dating a few months ago. I did the worst thing I could possibly do to him and I regret it fully. I took the violence that I have […]