Thank you to the people who commented on my posts. I appreciated feeling loved for once in my life. I’ve still chosen to leave this world, but at least you all were able to give me some peace.
I want to leave a few words of wisdom for everyone, especially to those who are young. First, be yourself. Society expects so much from everyone and most people struggle somehow to fit in. That’s okay. Don’t worry about trying to please everyone by being someone you aren’t. Do the things in life that bring you happiness. If you want to write, write. If you want to […]
IMDeadInside
I want to hate you, but I can’t. Despite the fact that you neglected me quite often growing up, I still love you. But I rarely ever felt like you loved me. You always acted like you wanted me to succeed, but never encouraged me to do the things I loved. You knew I loved art and writing, but whenever I was proud of something, you would always do your best to discourage me. You and dad always tried to push me towards the things you thought were “realistic” because they would pay more. But I never cared how much money I made as long […]
I don’t know why, but you never seemed to give two sh*ts about me. You always cared about yourself and always expected everyone else to be perfect. No one ever measured up to your high standards. You always thought you were right about everything and that your way of doing things was the only way. You were a coward and a bully, my personal tormentor all these years. My very first memory of you was not one of a loving father, it was of you taking personal enjoyment for beating me over something that wasn’t even my fault. I tried so hard over the years […]
Things I hate hearing when telling people I want to commit suicide
I’m still here, for now. First let me apologize in advance if anyone is offended by this post. Bitter sarcasm is about all I’ve got left. So here are the things I hate most when telling people I want to commit suicide.
Drum roll please…
1. Telling me that suicide is a sin and that I will go to Hell.
Wow, awesome. You just made me feel so much better. Thank you, mighty infallable one! Passing judgment and acting morally superior really turned my life around! How about instead of criticizing me and telling me how awful I am just for entertaining the thought of suicide, you […]
Before I explain why i have made this difficult decision, let me tell you a bit of my life so you can understand. I was raised in a very abusive household. I was often blamed for problems in the home, and accused of things that that I had not done or weren’t my fault. I would tell the truth and explain that I had not done these things, but my stepdad would not believe me and punish me anyway. One instance I recall vividly was when I was about 9. My brother and I had been playing downstairs and at some point were told to […]