so today. today may well be the official day. 10.29am. in a few hours i am going to kill myself. got the day off from school for the first time in ages. i don’t ever want to go back. i don’t ever want to see the sunlight again. so… here i am. i guess sitting in this pitch black room gives me comfort. drinking dad’s vodka. sorry dad. i know it was expensive. i know i was expensive. with all the psychologist appointments. all for nothing. . i won’t be an expensive buurden to […]
A Day to Remember,
They understand, and will help you every day.
Look ’em up, get their latest album, actually all of them.
the hour before I commit suicide,
I will write a letter to my mother and father, tell them I am sorry for everything I put them through, all the money spent on psychologists gone to waste, And thank them.
A letter to my sister, tell her that she was my best friend, even though we didn’t even see each other much, I could talk to her about anything.
A letter to my boyfriend, explaining everything I felt when I was alive, for he never understood, because I never told him, and that he was a great boyfriend.
A letter to the boy I will always […]
I don’t feel the same anymore, about us… I don’t know what to say to you anymore, I don’t feel anything when we kiss, I don’t feel happy around you anymore, and you used to be the only one who could make me cheer up, but now, now everything’s changed, you’ll always love her, everyone does, I know you don’t love me, and I don’t blame you, I am shit, shit for you, shit for anyone, why am I still even breathing, I’m sorry for not knowing how to act, not smiling or laughing enough, not being there for you, not seeing youu enough, not […]
I want the pain to go away.
Would 1400mg of setraline do it?
I have no motivation, I am a shit person. A shit friend. A terrible daughter. A fucked up sister. And a careless girlfriend. I want to drink until I cry. I haven’t cried for so long now. I hate myself.
Forever will I feel this way? Or will it get better? You don’t know. No one fucking knows.
aaaaaaaah!! I’m soo angry. Fucking attention seeker!! I hate them all. Fucking hate the bitches. This girl, in my year level, she says she has fucking anxiety/depression problems too. But, she could be a fucking liar, and selfish and untrustworthy, she sends messages to other people I know saying that she is doing harmful things to herself. And these people she sends to have real fucking problems, and when I look at this girl she never has the anxious, withdrawed expression that I’ve seen in every real sufferer and that I feel every day. She talked to me in a message saying that these […]
I need alcohol. Or drugs, I want to smoke some weed. I have never smoked weed before, what does it feel like..? I need something that makes me feel again, for I feel nothing, but emptiness, and worthlessness, and worry..
I don’t want to die. But sometimes I fantasize about suicide – how I’ll be wasted, dancing around to my chemical romance, and then I will fall listening to Helena – MCR. It will be surreal and amazing.. I may even slip a smile, a real one, and feel happiness, I will be set free.. But I won’t let it happen.
I’m starting to loose […]
Ate for the first time in a week.
Half a greasy pizza. 😐
I like your smile,
I like your vibe,
I like your style,
But that’s not why I love you.
You’re so beautiful,
But that’s not why I love you.
I’m not sure you know
That the reason I love you, is you,
Being you, just you.
Yeah the reason I love you,
Is all that we’ve been through,
And that’s why I love you.
Fellow readers 🙂
I was just wondering if there is anyone on this site who also suffer from Anxiety / Social Anxiety.
Just want to talk.
I have a simple question:
Is suicide selfish?
That Is All.