I think i finished my first suicide note. It was to my brother. Feeling pretty bad tonight, I’d probably write another but my wife is home right now. Maybe tomorrow while she’s at work. I can’t have her seeing me like this…nor anyone. Its not somthing they would take lightly obviously. I guess this is more of a journal than anything. But thats what i like about this place i guess. No judgment, no harassing. I am who i am you 90% of people understand that here. Ill still be here. At least til my last note if i can finish it…
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Feeling pretty crapy right now. My gun keeps staring at me. I had to remind myself that i havent left a note for my wife and family yet. She’s on her way home right now. She has to at least know whats going on right? nobody knows im suicidal, but they’ve known in the past i had been. At this point everyone would be in the dark. I need to at least write out some notes. I’ve tried writing some last few days but it’s hard to write out what you were thinking when you know that no matter how you write it they’re not […]
This is my first time seeing this website. I’ve just been looking for people who feel the same way i do. Im 25 and I currently went off my depression medication. Ive been suicidal before and this is the first time ive been suicidal while on my medication. I actually went off it to find the strength to go through with it this time. While taking it, i had the realization that even with the medicine, i still want to kill myself. What i mean is, in a good mood, i want to, want to kill my self. As if this is my lot in […]