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by kilofifi
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I tried to change a man that would never change.

I tried to see someone in you that wasn’t real.

I tried to help you love and forgive though I couldn’t do the same.

I tried to love a man that would never love me, that I would never love.

I tried to see a life that couldn’t exist.

I tried to be happy with someone that made me terribly unhappy.

I tried to, and I failed.

I’m pregnant now, and I’m married, and I’m lost and alone.

 

I don’t know what love is

I wish I did

I tried

I’m so sorry Daniel, so sorry for being a black hole in search of light.

I can’t […]

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Again

by kilofifi
written by kilofifi

Suicide, can it ever leave my thoughts? Death and life go hand in hand. The only certainties I can count on. This life just seems more like death…and death more like the life I want, numb, unmoving, still, silent. Beautiful Nothingness. Keaton Henson-I’m going down this ship, and I most likely will drown, but it’s worth it, it’s worth it. I’m 19 now, been thinking of this ever since I can remember. I don’t fit here, I don’t belong in this world. I am in unrecognizable pain, hiding behind a facade. I didn’t feel anything. Is this real. Is this what I hoped for. My […]

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Grant death to the good, for they deserve better

by kilofifi
written by kilofifi

Gives pain to those that are weak and can come out stronger. Endure and take as a reminder that the earthly ties of anguish are still knitted, and no human can untie what was tied by a supreme being. only the spirit and hand of it who laid the blocks and keyholes to that castle has the right to stand and move in it.

I wake to the sound of sadness and betrayal from a thought far far above. Understanding is all I will never get, actions turn to regrets. I lay, in a room, the ceiling is a dark night sky hidden from shooting stars. […]

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