I haven’t been on here in such a long time and from reading my last post I can see that I was in a very dark place. I am not fully recovered and I still have relapses from time to time, but I found that when you actually let people in to help and you give life a chance that things can change. Since me last post I have found the love of my life, moved out on my own, got engaged, and let my family back into my life. Without my family, friends and my medication I wouldn’t be on here talking to you. I […]
I slipped last night and i dont regret it but i had been so good for the past month and then my aunt started saying hurtful things and my best friend who is almost my sister doesnt want me around her baby. The marks are visible and yet all i get is a glance a sigh and then they are gone. I know they are fed up with me and i try so hard to get better but they dont help. I wish my family would help an i love you or please talk to me anything would be better than suffering alone in a […]
For the past 5 years of my life i have been suicidal and a self-harmer. It seems that my family and friends have all given up on me. I know they are just waiting for that day that they will have to go to my funeral. So why should i not just give them what they want? Recently i have stopped eating and have had horrible stomach and nausea problems, its not that i dont want to eat its just that my body doesnt want it. I havent been depressed for a while but i know where this is all leading. No one wants to […]
i am homestly starting to believe that no one really cares i tell them everything and they just look the other way i know they see the marks thatv get worse and deeper every day and yet they say nothing i am truly alone
I am going to finally end all my suffering and pain. Tomorrow i am going to take that gun and aim straight for the head. I am so fed up with everything that has been going on with my life and i know it has been all downhill since i was 15. If anyone in family notices a thing they probably won’t even say anything. I am sorry i couldn’t be perfect for them and this is the only option left. Goodbye my friends.
Kina
I am tired of feeling so worthless and being such a burden to my friends and family. I wish it would all end, but my dad hises the guns and the ammo. I am so at a lost right now that i am just spending countless days in my room contemplating when i can end this. My family guilt trips me at every corneer and i feel like i am not ever gonna be good enough for them. i have started cutting again and the cuts are getting deeper and few in between. I am tired of being me.
I am a 19 year old who has been in and out of psych hospitals and regular hospitals since i was 15. I started self-harming in 8th grade because my mother was up set at how i expressed emotions so i stopped expressing them altogether. I tried suicide when i was 15 because we had a foreign exchange student who kept telling horrible lies and my parents and friends believed her over me and i was left out in the cold. My sister found me dazed on the bethroom floor and called my mom. After two tubes of charcoal later i was put in a […]