I am tired of feeling so worthless and being such a burden to my friends and family. I wish it would all end, but my dad hises the guns and the ammo. I am so at a lost right now that i am just spending countless days in my room contemplating when i can end this. My family guilt trips me at every corneer and i feel like i am not ever gonna be good enough for them. i have started cutting again and the cuts are getting deeper and few in between. I am tired of being me.