I lie a lot, more than I should, and I feel terrible about it. I hurt my only friend, and I just don’t know what to do to control my big mouth. Teenagers…adults have every right to sigh about us.
All of you should read this, it would make my world. If you want to die, please read this, because I think you would understand. Please, this is my last request.
Im tired of all of these no offense, but really, jesus-freaks attacking me with i was ‘Put here for a reason, God loves you, Jesus made you….etc.’ I honestly do not care.
Yeah, i have family. yeah i have friends.
But whats eating me inside hurts me more than anything else could.
Its like heartbreak, jealousy, apathy, pain, impatience…everything that hurts put together into one.
I want to die, and i dont care who i hurt, because my grief inside is so much worse.
‘Its just a phase, every teen goes through it’ they say.
Well if i ever get the courage, ill prove you wrong.
Im a greedy, […]
It half past midnight in the shittiest small-town in the world.I feel so unwanted, and no matter how happy i get, its only for a little while, and my happiness is always over-shadowed by my ‘Depression’.
I hate that they have the power to label a jar, shove me in it, and shove that jar containing me in a cupboard they’ll forget about. I want happy pills, not fucking St. Johns Wort, that stupid organic mood-booster just gives me headaches.
I hate myself.
For a while i blamed other for being the reason i feel sad, tormented, hurt, always hurting and empty.
But i realize i’ve done it to myself.
Every useless scar on my body was made by me.
I did this to myself.
I have no excuses.
Why am i such a coward i cant die?
im just a 14 year old girl, high school sucks worse than i thought, and i hate myself and my life. why me?
please, please, please help me.
I hate life so fucking much. I hate everything. I want to die so much, I want to hurt, I want the shit beaten out of me, I want to have reasons for wanting to kill myself but I have none, and I have like, two friends left after The Betrayal.
But i cant do it.
I cant kill myself, Im afraid, not of death itself, but leaving oppurtunities.
I want first love, first kiss, first time, I want to see my little cousins grow up with me there.
But I hate life.
I have a house, food, clothes, family, all that you basically need.
Ive been depressed for a while, Im 14 years old and done with all the ‘all teenagers go through this phase’ bullshit. Ive gone psychologist to psychologist, from hospital to hospital, and happy pills. Im not depressed for any good reasons. I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. Im for the most part healthy. But i cry over the stupidest things, like how i look.
I was thinking about the fight with my ex-friends that caused me to drop out of school (im considering homeschool or just running away, even ‘therapeutic boarding school’ if we can afford it). I start crying everytime i […]
Cutting for me used to be the only way that i could release everything through blood. It was like a tidal wave of emotion–gone.
I cut the other day, after being upset over being called crazy by my ex-friends, i know you think its pathetic, but i get set off easily.
I felt nothing but physical pain. Its been happening lately when i cut.
I could feel my flesh tearing open, and nothing. No relief just a waste of blood.
Are there any other ways to get my emotions out? Release?
I hate my parents. No, Im dissapointed in their lack of support. They blame me for everything, my own twin sister blames me for everything. My dad calls me ugly, fat, and hits me. My mom calls me fat too, but goes to the extent of not feeding me. She doesnt just hit me like my dad, she beats me when she sees me cutting.
My sister is a selfish fat pig. If she doesnt get enough attention from ‘Daddy’, she cuts herself, throws a tantrum, or blames me, and accuses me. Did i mention she’s 14?
I just want to catch a Greyhound, or […]
I feel utterly alone in this world of misery. I just want to say that it would be nice if someone here could support me and talk to me?
I know i sound pathetic,
but hey its worth trying!
I see hope for my future, but its really lonely with no one supporting my depression. not my parents, not my twin, and ill say it, i have no friends.
14 years old trapped in miserable california.
just a girl trying to be different, but in trying to be different i need support. and no, this is not an invite to creepers. just people who understand […]
I feel ridiculous, having searched for a place to share my innermost feelings and thoughts of suicide…
I’m 14 years old, and have horrid self-esteem/confidence issues. I find myself repulsive, but yearn for love. I get no support from my family, not even my twin sister who hates me for getting attention i dont want. I go to a psychologist who tells me to go to school.
Did i mention i sort of dropped out, except i go every once in a while after my parents beat me.
I hurt so badly, over nothing. I have a house, food in my cupboards, clothes, im not […]