Just curious, putting it out there that I’m here if anyone needs someone to talk to.
Ky20
Me and my friend (who also suffers from severe depression) have started talking about making a suicide pact with eatchother. This isn’t his first time having one as the first time he made one with another person, they bailed last minute and criticized him for encouraging them to do it in the first place. Now that I’m currently at my all time low I’m thinking that having someone to do it with would be less scary since the first time I tried to kill myself it ended up being a traumatizing failure. I feel guilty in a sense that instead trying to keep my […]
I’m writing this while on the subway to distract myself so I don’t end up having another panic attack.
Today has been a really messed up day.
I realized I’ve become an absolute recluse. When trying to go to school I couldn’t even walk out the front door without having an anxiety attack. I can’t even make eye contact with people anymore and always feel the need to cover my face.
I’ve gotten even more worse than I originally thought over the past few months and I feel like I’m absolutely hopeless at this point.
I think I’m finally ready to plan a date for […]
I don’t know why,
but I find it really embarrassing to admit out loud how lonely I feel, so I can only manage to post it anonymously on this site.
Putting all my mental health issues aside, for awhile now I’ve pretended that I don’t need to depend on anyone in my life and I can only rely on myself.
But I’ve only done that in order to protect myself because finding someone who understands me and what I’ve been though and what I am going through, seems to be almost impossible,
and it hurts when in the end they always leave.
Anyone who seems […]
It’s been 6 years now,
I’ve been fighting with my mental illness for 6 years.
During some periods, times have been somewhat easier to get through than others.
On my “good” days it’s hardly manageable, but just getting the minimum amount done, like going to school, is considered a success.
But when it’s bad it’s crippling.
I haven’t had a “good” day in about 2 years,
I’m really tired.
In the past I used to sleep for extended periods of time to escape my mind, but now I can’t seem to manage more than 3 hours of sleep a night.
The silence encourages my darkest […]