It’s been a minute since I posted something… I don’t even know where I stand right now, i’m confused and lost at this point here’s why………So for the last 8 months I as happy because I got into a relationship with someone who was special to me but about 4 days ago me nd his cousin was chilling and smoking then he kissed me nd it went from there but I had to tell my boyfriend so last night I told him nd today i’m sitting here next to him but we aren’t speaking nd i’m the cause of it.. Now im stuck between him […]
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So I have been dating this really nice faithful guy for about 5months now but bcuz of my last relationships it just has me question does he really truly love me or is he just using me like the others, or what if he has sumbody else on the side, im going crazy with questions. It feels like he really loves me but then again it all seems so unreal or like a trick or set up that will leave me broken and lonely again…..I dont know what to think right now.
For the past 3 weeks I have stayed in my house, I go to school nd come back home. I don’t feel wanted or loved anymore I keep having flashbacks of my past. I tried to overdose 2 nights ago, I ended up cutting again. What’s next?? should I just go ahead nd take my life nd hope that God will forgive me nd still allow me to go through the gates or heaven or even just give me a little house outside the gates? Should I just disappear from everybody nd hope that nobody starts to look for me? Should I fake my death […]
Im to dat point where im just about to say forget everything and just take my life im so tired of dealing with the same thing over and over im just to that point where I just wanna be done with life so tonight might just be my last……………………………………………
thinking about suicide…………..im so tired I tried staying strong and keeping my head but its been to long. I am so tired of hurting, crying, and suffering I juss wish I can run away and never come back or I could end it all I don’t even know what I want anymore I juss want the pain to go away…
Me trying not to think about life on a vacation away from home……
As im just layin here I think to myself what’s my real purpose, why am I really still alive, why am I always in pain? I ask myself y aren’t things getting better everything is getting worse, my depression, suicide, pain, nd more. What is really wrong with me????????
What’s the point of still living when all you have to live with is pain? what is the point of still trying to hold on when you’re already dead??… What’s the point of fuckin life huh? What’s the point of trying to get thru the day without cutting or having suicidal thoughts what’s the fuckin point?? What’s the point of waking up in the morning and having your past flash in your mind and it plays those horrible things that has happened to you over and over and over again until you finally go crazy. What’s the point of trying to stay calm and happy […]
I’m really getting tired of waking up in the am, faking a smile, saying i’m fine and that everything is ok when it’s not..I’m slowly dying all I feel is pain and my depression is out of control I can’t get a grip of myself. A part of me is ready to go but the other parts wants to hang on just a little longer but i’m so tired man ughhh I just don’t know what to do anymore..
When I got reunited with my mom I found out she had a new baby girl and her dad was staying with us it was fine at first until we moved into a new house then her dad started kissing me he told my mom she never did or said anything then he started raping me I told her again and again and I was getting raped from age 6 to age 12 almost 13 but he got kicked out because he wouldn’t pay the light bill or help around the house my mom never did anything about the rape still……the bullying at my school […]
My life has always been hard and stressful when I was a baby I got taken away from my mom and I was being bullied in school when I started going. I used to get bullied by a lot of people and I started cutting when I turned 6 years old, when I first started thinking about death I was only 5. Nobody knew then a few months after my birthday I got reunited with my mom and it was good at first but then things took a turn for the worse…………TO BE CONTINUED
This lady is getting mad because I was walking home from school to cope with my feelings because she already knows i’m suicidal and she doesn’t even seem to fucking get it… like wtf yo she just pissed me off to the point where ima end up leaving a suicide note and running away to a place nobody can find me at all…I’m trying to explain to her that I was walking cuz I want to kill myself but when I walk I can just be alone with my feelings and can cope with them but she just made everything worse now I don’t even […]
I feel like im supposed to be dead.. i’m already dead to the world anyways so why not just take my own life there is nothing in this world for me anymore i’m worthless so why do I still wake up everyday and hide behind a fake smile and tell myself to stay strong when deep down inside I just wanna die and nobody else knows how I feel about life or death.. To be honest i’m tired of waking up and doing the same shidd over and over again I cut all the time now and my thoughts of suicide won’t go away. What […]
Today is not my day….I just wanna say f*ck everything and just kill myself right now my whole life has been nothing but a joke that’s full of pain tears and blood. I tried overdosing didn’t work, hanging myself didn’t work, and stabbing myself nothing worked, i’m just so tired of everything like the pain, the bullying, my depression, and everything else I need serious help I took over 10 suicidal tests today and my scores came back very high and i’m just to the point where I don’t care about life anymore I already made my obituary in my 4th period class and my […]
Up late can’t sleep got to much on my mind……………….. I need help ASAP before I loose my f*cking mind