MissDysphoria

I’m finally going to do it. I have the best plan and it’s perfect. No one will even know I’m gone as I’m not close with anyone. I won’t have to go to my shitty job and get yelled at, or my second job where I’m pulling hair out. I won’t have to see the ppl who are important to me ignore and hangout with my enemies. I won’t have to cry every day and night grieving over my lost love. I will finally be free with him, together forever at peace at last.

I won’t be going into this stupid next year. I’ve spent […]

Y’all may know me from way back, depressed and suicidal. I have been dating this very sad and distressed boy, he recently jumped infront of a car and was killed instantly. It happened so fast, he was dead before the ambulance arrived, I was blocks away. I was gonna pick him up bc he was walking home drunk. He told me he was depressed that he wanted to kill him self. I told him I’ll call off work, and he said, “no don’t chill my friends coming”. I still tried to pick him up but he wasn’t where he said he was. 20 mins later […]

To say the least, I have no friends, no one to check up on me or invite out. I have no one and nothing. I feel like I must be the problem but trust, I know when I fuck up and when I don’t, I’m self aware, I just have a shit load of trauma and social anxiety etc, I seem like a lame person, but I’m not…I just keep getting out casted from rumors nothing legit and it’s like, so do I just die now then?

I use to post on here way back, when I was going through the deepest of my depressions. I’ve since then had many many more breakdowns similar and it has recently come to light that I have a high functioning personality disorder. And for once in my life I don’t feel crazy anymore. I feel sane knowing everything I was feeling has just been validated.
I hope the rest of you out there find some type of closure for the way you feel.

I feel like my friends don’t hang out with me like they use to, and I just need to not be alone right now….I just want to cry cuz it feels so shitty

I feel like a loose cannon, i’m going crazy! like when arn’t I…but fuck, i just feel like i could do right about anything these days. for instance, I just took like a handful of sleeping pills, cuz i really wanna go the fuck to sleep to turn this crazy shit off!

I am not terribly depressed at the moment, however; I feel I may just kill myself out of boredom. I’m bored with life, nothing interests me, and there’s nothing I care about.

Did it! I broke up with my boyfriend. I could actually use a lot of friends here. I don’t have any on this side. Also realized, this day last year I first checked myself into a mental hospital. how fitting.

I think I’m finally close to doing it. (Not taking about killing myself, that will come in due time) But my boyfriend is the most depressing thing in my life right now. I’ve been with him twice as long as anyone else, and he’s only given me half the attention anyone else has. When we hang out together we literally do nothing together, he sits on his huge gaming rig and plays for hours. That’s it, that’s all we do. Or should I say all he does. When was the last time he took me out, on a date or something? I don’t know….I’m not […]

Every time I see someone post about how they really what to have an SO I feel so guilty. Because I have one, but its so wasted on me. its the most bland, lame, tiring relationship ever. It didn’t use to be. It use to be amazing, kept my heart racing and life was so much more thrilling and emotional. but now, we’ve broken up and gotten back together so many times, and at this post we can see the end coming up soon. so right now, I just feel so unsatisfied and more lonely then ever. its like he’s there but not really there. […]

I Hate thinking about the future and my plans, but I’m at the point where I need to make some important life decisions. So I finally planned out something, and in the end I’ll get to kill myself before I’m 30. Its the only way I can convince myself to move forward in life, even if its only for a few more years. I prefer a sweet and short life, not a long lonely painful one.

Might possibly even hate.