I havent been on here in a long time. remember when I used to log in and there were only a 100 or so posts. I am feeling lost but working through it. Either going off to ksu for my degree, finding someone to get married to, or just going off and becoming a priest for the guarantee that I will always feel needed and useful. I don’t know who here will understand since i no longer want to kill myself the way i used to. I just lost my gf because i was an asshole to a girl who never once made me feel […]
Monwell
I dont even know why im alive anymore. everyone has taken everything from me. my 5.0 gpa gone my 17min 5k gone im basically nothing anymore. its not even worth it. i just want to die. i street race hoping to crash into a tree and die. il never hit another car when racing because we race on closed streets and my car is just built to handle well go fast and get destroyed if i crash. every system that protects me has been shut off and my supports and frame have been compromised. but anyway i dont know anymore. people have destroyed me and […]
im trying to do the calculations for how long it will take my car to fill the garage to a lethal level of co but im not sure how much the catalytic converter removes from the reaction. i know the burning of 1 mole of gas creates 1/4 mole of co. which through the ideal gas law comes out to say it will take about 400 moles to raise the level to something around 12,000ppm. anyone want to give me the last part of this so i can finally get out of this thing that some call life. thanks.
Well I thought things were looking up. ran an awesome district race for cross and everything but the next day my gf dumps me for a runner who is ranked in the nation. im trying to move on but that coupled with only getting a 3.4 gpa(yeah it seems so bad i know but when your used to a 5.0 it sucks.) i just dont want anything anymore. i told the people who ive writtten letters to how to get them off my laptop and i figured out how to make my suicide look like an accident. no on will ever know i actually committed […]
I’m just a teenage guy. I’m stressed beyond belief. I don’t know where to turn, my school work id fluctuating. At least I have running but even that I’ll only ever be so good at. I’m running out of options and I need to know if someone has any ideas before I actually decide to do something stupid again….