Well hey yah bunch of cunts missed yah even if you don’t know me. My mood was good for a couple of days, until reality hit me like a brick again *sigh*. What have you guys been up to I doubt it’s good if you’re seeing this. So I might actually end up staying till Christmas, couldn’t bring myself to break my mother’s heart. Even though she can be a C-U-N-T sometimes she worked really hard on Christmas this year. But my mother uses antidepressants so I thought of sneaking one. (not to kill myself, I’m not that stupid) maybe it could help me out […]
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What would be the polar opposite of this site in layman’s terms the successful twin brother to this site 4chan is getting boring so is Reddit
Well I just got friendzoned fuck my life dude *facepalm*I asked her she said I was sweet (got categorized as nice guy) she also said be more bold as well tbh I still fucking confused my self esteem and confidence just got hit to the negative levels *sigh*
So the family and i are going to stay at my aunt’s. in the city for a little “Vacation” my first thought about it, was is there any way to off myself. Without money and is it efficient, I don’t know why but i’m shaking I’m not scared. I got over my fear of death long ago, I would laugh in its face if it had a physical form. so since I’m more than 65% that I’m going to off myself. I just don’t want to leave loose ends so maybe say good bye to distant family members. I doubt most of them […]
Do you guys ever wonder what your life would be like. If one moment that was significant or insignificant was changed, like what year you were born, if your parents personality and characteristic were slightly changed. Or heavily changed if you had a sister brother or if you didn’t have any at all, or what your parents would be like if you weren’t born if you were rich poor or you were a orphan. I kinda wonder this maybe a bit to often but maybe that’s just curiosity getting the better of me who knows.
I just realised something, what is the point of my life I just feel like a burden. Half the time and the other half I’m just falling deeper in depression. I’ve got nothing to live for, just a sack of meat taking up resources and making other people’s life’s harder. Such as my mothers, brother, sister, aunt, and cousins I don’t know anymore I just really don’t know I feel like putting a gun in my mouth. And I feel so relaxed because once after I pull the trigger, I’m relieved of all my worries daily struggles to be honest I know my life is […]
Suicide is somewhat, a peaceful thought for me just thinking about it relaxes me. Knowing that there is always a path (hypothetically) for me to choose. If all hope is lost and i got no over options, i’m not sure if this is a good way to calm down or if it’s healthy for my situation. But something about just planing it out, the note where and how it’s hard to explain. i just feel like that if all over paths are blocked off i always, have that path open for me and that is a relief to know in my mind