Minutes feel like hours days feel like years.Can’t get these fleeting thoughts of misery out of my head.I’m nearing the end I can feel it.I climb the 8 floors of an open parking garage multiple times a week trying to gather the courage to toss myself over the edge and end all the torment that I feel inside .I can’t get any peace no matter what I do I end up feeling so alone so sad so empty .I failed there’s nothing else to do nothing else to say.
All that I feel is emptiness within me. I feel so alone so insecure no one understands how I truly feel. I feel so trapped like a rat in a cage. Never have I more then recently thought of ending it all I have nothing to live for no one to keep me going  I have hurt a great deal of people in my life im a wreck.I no longer want to feel I no longer want to have to deal with it all drinking has only made me feel worse drugs have only made me clutch deeper within a shell within me IM LOSING […]
I have been threw a lot in my life some could say my life has been a struggle but not as bad as some have had it but bad enough. As I write this and I think about how good my life is going  at the current moment, I ponder how long until this current bout of happiness will last. I see so many people with smiles on there face and I wonder are they truly happy or are they just hiding it well? I have so much to live for as some say but I think otherwise I have a lot of internal issues […]
I cant function don’t want to eat don’t want to sleep  i am nothing but bear bones I am 21 years old now have seen much worse times in my life such as being teased growing up for being overweight after HS i moved out of state far away ran away from my issues like I always did turned to drinking and doing drugs to cope I am now in a shitty place once again some say my life is well if only they knew some say taking ones life is selfish i think otherwise i am 5-7 and 130 pounds I am going to […]
I sit here and I stare at my arms. why why did I do what I did these scars will never go away burning cutting mutilating myself to bits to pieces. It feels so good when the razor goes so deep I am so thin that there is nothing but bone not flesh I once was a cutter I once was so unhappy I would burn myself with cigarettes I now fill thy void with alcohol. Last night and today was the first time in a year and a half that I self mutilated myself sometimes we deal with things in the most incorrect manners I […]
I never have been happy my life has always been a complete wreck. I have never been what you call happy I am not even sure that I know what happy even feels like today has been a rough day my GF of 9 months has left me. I sit here and cock and squeeze a gun its not loaded I ponder if its worth it. I am 21 years old I feel like a complete and utter train wreck things day by day I ponder about the past and about how people had mistreated me, As a teenager I had attempted to hang myself […]