I want to die so badly.. I’m just a pain as my parents call me.. That’s a new name haha..
There’s a tub of bleach waiting in the bathroom right in front of me right now.. My mom left it when she was fixing a stain.. It’s taunting me so much..
I.. I love how the people you would think you could trust and tell everything to and they’d always make you feel happy do the opposite for me.. I don’t even know if they love me..
Nico here.
I’ve grown too lazy to put Day __ so I’m putting numbers only instead. I.. I relapsed and cut myself. It stings but, I missed it. Charming knows but she’s not disappointed in me. At least that’s what she says. The cuts are on my thighs now, since in my culinary class I have to roll up my sleeves. I have friends like me there too, and I notice how some people stare at their arms cause of their scars. I don’t want to go through that.
They’re healing, but I feel like I’m gonna do it again soon. My parents just keep making me […]
Oh hey, it’s been a really long time. Nico here.
Just to tell you guys before I start, this post isn’t going to be as happy as my others. I’ll try to cheer up though soon.
My parents make me feel so useless and stupid.. This is the best that I’ve done in school and yet.. I was so proud of myself.. Haha.. It’s really useless isn’t it?.. No matter what I do.. They never appreciate it.. Guilt talking to make it seem like I’m the bad guy.. I’m done with them.. I know they care but I just.. I’m shattering under the pressure.. like a mirror.. […]
You said you’d never leave me.
You said you’d stay by my side forever.
You said you’d always hold me tight.
You said you’d go through anything with me.
You said you’d never let me go.
You said you’d never forget me.
You said you loved me.
You liar.
Alright, Nico here, I’m back.
So thanks to the people who commented.. You guys helped me calm down a little.
Heheh my mom didn’t throw away all of my stuffed toys but put some in the garage so I snuck and got them back.. Some of them were what my Charming gave me so that’s nice..~
I’m still a little upset and stuff about earlier though.. It hurts.. And now I’m being bombarded with other flashbacks of what my family did to me.. In 8th grade they bought a condo for me in the Philippines because they wanted me to go to medical school there.. […]
Hey, it’s Nico.
Haha I’m just gonna start off with my life is terrible right now.
I hate my family so much.. I love how this day was going so well but as soon as I come home from school I just have my mom throwing all my stuff away even some of my most important valuables.. One thing being given to me by an old close friend who died of cancer.. All my art, my stuffed animals that have helped me when I was down.. Everything.. Gifts that my Love gave me.. All of it is gone..
All I am is just a slave.. Oh I have […]
Yo, Nico again.
I’m pretty excited about today because I’m gonna go out with my friends and stuff later. Well that’s if I manage to keep my parents happy today and not get them mad like always.. They’re really hot headed and stubborn so even the slightest thing can make them explode.. They scare me a lot..
Heheh but anyways we’re gonna be going to the mall and stuff to hang out.They want to go to the halloween store but honestly I’m a huge ***** so I don’t know if I’m gonna go with them. ;-; Mm but they took out one of my favorite places there.. It […]
Hey guys, it’s Nico again.
Heheh it’s nice to see people being nice to me here, most people I’ve met on the internet are jerks haha. Oh, and thanks to the people who said happy birthday hehe~ As you all said I’ll try to keep my upbeatness.
As of right now life’s been kinda alright. Mm, well yesterday wasn’t so much. Mainly because of school stuff. Especially health and safety.. We had to do a group project this week where we had to make a skit about saying no to someone telling you to do drugs, drink, or cut class.. I got placed with a group that […]
So, this is my first post. It’s my birthday actually so that’s kinda nice. I guess I don’t know whenever it’s my birthday my family usually makes it a normal day and normal days are hell with them. Today though my Mom allowed me to go with my friends to this arcade, which I’m surprised she allowed me to do since she never lets me do anything.
Oh, right, I never really introduced myself. My name’s Nico, well, it’s not my real name but it’s a nickname my friends gave me, we all have one from the anime LoveLive. Yeah, I’m a weeb. I’m […]
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