I dont wanna move.
I dont wanna do anything, except lay here.
Im numb.
Im emotionless.
And i wanna die.
How could things get like this again?
Thinking about cutting again guys… -__-
Alone I sit,
Alone I think,
Alone I experience,
Alone I cry,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut,
Alone I watch the blood,
Alone I feel the pain.
Alone I think about cutting deeper,
Alone I experience my sadness,
Alone I cry my eyes out,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut my wrists just a tiny bit deeper,
Alone I feel the pain.
Alone I think about slicing pictures,
Alone I experience my emptiness,
Alone I cry for all I’ve lost,
Alone I reach for the knife,
Alone I cut nice drawings for all of those who want to […]
Take my heart, i dont want it anymore.
Im so hurt that i cant even write…
Im in my room With the music loud as hell
No-one can hear me screaming-
They never do..
Well I’ve got a razor to my wrist and im wonderin’
Do you still think Im happy?
Excuse me while I cut out all MY imperfections
One cut
Two cut
Three cut
Four
I can’t take it anymore
Five Cut
Six Cut
Seven cut
More
Watch the blood drip to the floor
This beautiful blood causes so much pain
This beautiful blood makes a beautiful stain
I just have to cut over and over again
It feels so good
Not like it should
I do it more than I ever thought I would
Her face is puffy and red, while painful tears stream down her sad face.
She cries out loudly, hoping someone will hear her silent screams.
So many voices going through her head,
telling her how better she would feel if she were dead.
She places her shaking hands over her ears, trying not to listen.
She yells out once again for help, yet no one comes to her rescue.
She then remains sitting there on her cold bathroom floor, while the clock ticks by.
Her body begins to shake uncontrollably, unable to stop it all.
Starting to realize that no one cares, feeling so alone and helpless.
She finally comes to the decision that […]
Last night I did something I’d promise myself I’d never do again.
That if it ever came to that moment in my life I’d find another alternative.
But for some reason I just couldn’t resist.
I started cutting my arm again.
I was upset and in so much pain
I really couldn’t take it anymore
I wanted to feel better and relieved
And this was what I needed
This was what i missed
From the rush of the cold blood flowing down my arm
To the pain and sadness slowly disappearing
I know I broke a promise to myself and I know I’m going to regret this
But I needed comforting
And my sharp, cold, silver friend was […]
When I look in the mirror, all that I can see is emptiness inside of me and I ask myself…
Who am I?
On the outside it seems to clear.. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend…but who am I?
Every morning when I awake, I tell myself it is time to put on a show..don’t want no one to know, what I feel when I am alone. I can’t let them see the tears I cry.. As keep all my fears hidden deep inside..
I tell myself; I do not know how much more I can take before this life I choose to forsake..
It seems to easy […]
It’s all i think about
Can’t get it out
So hard to resist
all i have is a small razor
so i drag the blade across my legs and arms
wishing to do myself much more harm
one day, one day
…Suicide
The girl who seemed unbreakable, finally broke.
The girl who seemed so strong, finally fell and crumbled.
The girl who always laughed, finally cried.
The girl who never stopped trying, finally gave up…
Today I felt so alone
No one around to call my own
I weep I plead I cry I bleed
All I want is someone to love
Someone to hold me
Someone to trust
But it’s okay I’m used to the feeling
The life I hold I can feel it ending
I cut all night and just can’t sleep
That last cut comes down way to deep
The scarlet blood trickles down and hits the floor
It keeps coming more and more
This time I failed once again
I lost my hope I lost my plan
My plan to leave this hatred place
This dream of mine […]
Blood is dripping,
Down her arms.
No-one knows,
That she self harms.
The smile she wears,
Is utterly fake.
Careful now,
She might just break.
She cries at night,
But smiles at day.
The voices she hears,
Might get their way.
Her body sways,
From side to side.
A young fragile girl,
Who wants to die.
Someone help me…… :'(
7 days…
i haven’t reached for my blade, not even once.
today, that’s all I been thinking about. :/
i just wanna feel it on my arm, it’s soothing to me.
what should I do?…
I’ve been down a hell of a road.
my heart has been broken not just once, but twice. Â I dwell on EVERYTHING negative. I’m just no good. I’m struggling with severe depression. :'(
I have considered killing myself, which is still on my mind. I no longer see a reason in living…
Then today happen.
I’m a senior in high school and it his week is homecoming week. I have been watching all my friends laugh and smile, i was jealous. Lately I’ve been feeling the worst I’ve ever felt. I was planning to kill myself this weekend. I had everything set up.
“are you okay Jez?”
Those four words just […]
IM 17, A SENIOR IN HIGHSCHOOL, AND I WANT OUT. Suicide is scary though, but I don’t wanna live anymore….I really need an easy way out. I hope to soon realize that I shouldn’t be afraid of death. I mean I want it so bad, yet it scares me. It’s effed Up.