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peachuniverse

unending breakdowns

by peachuniverse 5/12/2020

written by peachuniverse

hi, i’m here again because i’m so tired of running to my friends, seeking for help when they are already so tired of me- helping me out. i i don’t know what to do, i always want to change for the better but some things just doesn’t seem to allow me to do that.

im just too sad that i can’t find any reasons why and reasons to go on anymore. ive hit rock bottom and this quarantine isnt helping me at all. im too cramped up in this small space making me think all the decisions i made and i just cant forgive myself. all […]

5/12/2020 2 comments

why

by peachuniverse 2/9/2020

written by peachuniverse

why do shitty things happen to me? i have an abusive father, i have a mom who’s always sick, i have a brother who feels the same as me and i have an uncle who’s a complete drunkard. my parents would always fight every now and then which is so fucking tiring. i would always witness their fights for years and it has become so toxic to the point that it makes me bear the situation. i’m so helplessly tired, my friends at school can’t even take me seriously. my internet friends are fucking far away. i don’t have anyone to rely on because my […]

2/9/2020 1 comment

Dead or not

by peachuniverse 7/11/2019

written by peachuniverse

I’m at school right now and I don’t know what to do. I badly want to go home, I’m suffocating and I can’t breathe. I don’t want to hear anyone or anything I just want to go home and maybe tie a pretty ribbon on my neck on the ceiling. Anyway, I really really hate myself. I want to die right now. The agonizing pain is just too much for me. Tons of emotions are showering me, please stop. I’m already overwhelmed as it is. Please. I badly want to cry right now, I’m shaking.

7/11/2019 2 comments

Lonely

by peachuniverse 7/10/2019

written by peachuniverse

Hi.

I’ve been so sad and so afraid of everything for years. The sadness and fear eats me up everytime I wake up and start a new day, and I know that this year, it gets worse.

I’m pushing and shutting out everyone in my life, when they ask me what’s wrong or what’s going on with me, I can’t find the right answers. I’m scared. Scared of what? Of myself. I’m sad. Sad about what? Sad about living and putting a great burden on my parents. I’m so sad I want to kill the sadness away, but that only applies when I’m dead.

I don’t know how […]

7/10/2019 0 comment

Stray Kids

by peachuniverse 4/15/2019

written by peachuniverse

I’ve been a fan of so many idols and never, have I ever, encountered one who communicates to fans like his fans are his closest friends. Especially last night, he said something like “When you’re feeling depressed or anything, just come to us anytime. Stray Kids would listen. We’ll fix you.” and those tears that I never knew existed for so long just kept on gushing down on my face. The way he said “We’ll fix you.” ignited some hope in me that I could become a better person, but can I really do that? Can I really be fixed when no one else can? […]

4/15/2019 1 comment

idk

by peachuniverse 4/13/2019

written by peachuniverse

idk what to do anymore. it seems like life isn’t really for me. i feel like im such an incompetent being and i can’t pass my parents’ expectations. ive been one of those biggest disappointments in their life and all i could do is continue being a depressed shit towards them. i feel like i don’t deserve to have them and they deserve a better life without me and a better daughter that could make them happy and proud.

4/13/2019 6 comments