Because let me tell you, all of this is getting pretty old. And by all of this I’m implying life.
I am NOT a fuck up. I do care. I care so fucking much. I know I don’t have scars on the outside, but inside I’m torn to shreds. Don’t you dare say you understand. NOBODY FUCKING UNDERSTANDS. I will not be dropping out of school. I will not be failing. Will you all just stop talking about it please and let me be alone?
Yes, my grades are absolute and complete shit. I realize that. No I don’t know how I’ll get them up, but will you SHUT THE FUCK UP?! Okay, I need help, I realize that. But I don’t need you. I need […]
I’m crazy, I must be crazy. Out of the blue I took a pen and sticky note and wrote “Hey, I like you. and this is crazy, but here’s my love note, so prom….maybe?” on it, then stuck it to the locker of the girl I want to ask out to prom. WHY DID I DO THAT?
I don’t know what to think, but I did it, it’s done, and nobody can erase it now…unless I somehow get to her locker before she does, open it up, take it off, and hide it before anyone can see? But that won’t work. No. I have to get […]
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^my story in 20 words or less.
Love.
rainbow
I am going to post a video. It’s one of the most powerful video’s I’ve ever seen. It made me cry.
Do me a favor and take 4 minutes and 24 seconds of your life to watch this. I promise it will make you feel different. I’m still not sure how I feel, but I feel kind of better now.
So if you don’t do anything else, do this. Please. 4 minutes 24 seconds and it can change you. In a good way. I promise.
So I just wanted to let you all know that it’s official. My shrink watches this website. I gave it to her and she found my posts. I think she reads this quite often, but I’m not sure.
That’s just letting you know that you someone who knows how to help is there. And I also wanted to let you know that the person writing this wants to listen and help.
That’s all. So that’s all I wanted to tell you. Oh, and Stephanie, if you’re reading this HIII!! :DD
have a good day and please smile….for me <3
Get better
rest
let your body heal
You’re not helpless
You’re not weak
Don’t give up
Don’t break down
just sleep.
shut your eyes
let it float away
it will be better tomorrow
Let yourself morph
like a butterfly
float to something better
Don’t cry
Don’t think
Spread your wings and just let go
To a better place
with no pain
or weakness
no sadness
or fear
Just you
and me
and the world behind us
Dear Gloria,
It’s your favorite niece writing. I’ve been thinking, and this summer I would really like to come visit you. I’m so sick of this fucking family with their fucking up tight opinions and suburb attitudes. Every single one of them just pisses me off. I’m serious, just looking at one of them makes me want to take a bullet to the head. Today your little sister and I got in a fight….again. I figured as much would happen, it always does when schoolwork becomes a requirement. Apparently “we don’t communicate like we used to” well how the fuck am I supposed to “communicate” when […]
I have a friend.
Well, yeah, I guess you could call her a friend. Her name is Margie, or at least that is what I’ve always called her.
The first time I met her she was nice. I liked her. Even had a crush on her for a period of time.
She was my freshman homecoming date, but only as friends.
We went to a football game a few weeks after that. Her and two other friends of ours.
She smoked weed. But I didn’t know that until we were in the forest behind the bleachers with a group of people, passing around a bowl.
I think it was a bowl. […]
I sat in the bathtub, playing the same songs over and over but I wasn’t really listening.
It wont hurt. Someone told me you just get confused. Then it’s over.
I held my breath and dove under the soapy water. It was the first time I had done something like this. I had always wanted to die, but I had never tried to do it. Today was different.
It was a strange feeling. I had been under water plenty of times, I practically grew up at the local swimming pool, but today I wasn’t pretending to be a mermaid or trying to improve my backstroke: Today I was […]