Who knew I could get so worked up over something so small?

I’m crazy, I must be crazy. Out of the blue I took a pen and sticky note and wrote “Hey, I like you. and this is crazy, but here’s my love note, so prom….maybe?” on it, then stuck it to the locker of the girl I want to ask out to prom. WHY DID I DO THAT?

I don’t know what to think, but I did it, it’s done, and nobody can erase it now…unless I somehow get to her locker before she does, open it up, take it off, and hide it before anyone can see? But that won’t work. No. I have to get the nerve to just sit there and wait for her reply.

The thing is, we are both girls. I know she’s bi, she told me last year, but that doesn’t mean that everyone else is. I’ve had a crush on her for a while, but I’ve never gotten anywhere. I mean, we’re friends, but I don’t know if she wants to be more than that. Last year, we danced to the last slow song, and during it I admitted that I had never made out with anybody. She then replied that we should have a sleep over and when we do that she’d be my first.

Well, with both of our moms being kind of bitchy and her schedule being so busy, we never got together. We’re still friends, but we’re not as close as we used to be. I just don’t want her to reject me, tell other people, and then avoid me forever, you know?

And, I still think she kind of has this thing for a girl she secretly dated last year, who now goes to boarding school a good hour or two away. I mean, they aren’t dating anymore, she said there was no way it was going to work out, but she’ll periodically write on her facebook saying “when are you coming home?” or “We need to get together soon :)” But i don’t know.

GOD. IM SO FUCKING STUPID.

WHY DID I DO THAT?

OMG. I HAVE DOUBLE CLASS PERIODS NEXT, I WONT SEE HER UNTIL THE END OF THE DAY

WHAT IF SHE REJECTS ME?

OHH. I need help.