RealTalk30

She said..

“Nothing but the best, for the golden boy!”

I must continue on.. With every last drop of blood, I must proceed to the end. Take one hard and solid look at yourself, and I will do the same.

It’s time, now is the time to take action, not tomorrow. Now is the time when I will prove what I am made of, and that my life indeed means something.

Now is the time to let go of reflection and turn your attention towards tomorrow. Now is the time to suck up the pain and push forward.

There is no need for prayer, there is no reason for doubt.

The only way through this hell […]

Meet me out on the steel

Beam built to the sky

From the ground, you see my life

Two tear drops to bend the light from my eye

And so I dive..

Meet me out on the wings of flight

Dreams, to still keep my head up high

Many destinations pass me by

And still I fly..

To the ends of this earth, the harder I try

Sweeping through moments, through motions, scraping the sky

Eager to live, to feel, to breath, never knowing why

This tower of temptation, these endless stories can invite

Me and my rights…

Meet me down in the grime

Holding me close, this once, and for the last time

Coldly closing my grip, to open […]

Wow…now I know how it feels to accidentally delete every heart felt word right when you get to the end. Yeah…that doesn’t make things better. But anyways..

What I was trying to say was.. I told my brother that “I’m contemplating suicide as usual”

I’m not suicidal but I think about killing myself all day long everyday. That’s me. There was a whole lot more that I wrote explaining further but ill have to skip it for now.

So will the men in white coats show up? No they won’t! (Skipping to the point of a once well written reflection)

No one cares..and I don’t blame […]

If I could pull one miracle for you..it would be the kind all the world would see.
When you wake up tomorrow, that’s when you’ll start to believe.

If I could wish for one thing now, it would be to give up everything.
Bring me to that place where nothing is all I need.

Down in the darken hall, can you see the glow? From a life that lingers beyond this earth, where we leave this dust and bone.

If I contemplate it hard enough, I know I’m not alone. So many sorely surging through my soul, I speak the words they won’t.

Though my voice is not […]

I’m sure people here can relate, so here it goes.

Who are you going to be today? Or, if that doesn’t fit you..try.. Who did you wake up as today?

I believe it’s natural to take a different approach every day to how we go about thinking, doing, talking, etc. Its even more useful when trying to improve situations from previous days (or the previous day)

Sometimes we have to be the more sensitive listener, when maybe the day before we might not have been so.

Or maybe it would be valuable to have a stern approach with people, knowing that some people like to walk […]

Or maybe I should entitle it.. “Worthless Others”

Idk.. Lately I’ve been finding it hard to value people at all. I feel so alien. Cuz after all, if people aren’t worth a damn in my life then whats the point of being anyone worth while in the first place. I’m so sick of this blood sucking planet. Fucking worthless god damn people…. Everywhere!!! I’m not trying to be hateful… But fuck’m all anyways!!

Idk.. Lately it would seem like nothing matters to me. None of these well thought out and meaningful conversations, or even the fucked up nature of this world.. None of it seems to matter to me lately. I’ve been feeling pretty “depressed”, but not the kind that keeps me from going about my day. It’s a very angry depression with a touch of sadness. But I’m not too big on sadness. Sometimes when I start to get too sad, I eventually have to laugh at myself for being who I am and living the life I live, just everything..it’s fucked and I just have to […]