I am laying here with the poison, I am scared too but I know that I will never get enjoyment out of another day. My head’s function for emotion has decreased. I am debating taking the DNP as I type, by the time I hit the publish tab, my drink will be mixed and drunk. I have drunk some but I may need to mox some more.
I am tired of the feeling my body and my life gives me, I feel cheated and taken advantage of. I am not calling my father today to wish him a happy father’s day. I have tried my whole life to develop a solid relationship and believe that he could have shielded me from some of these happenings. Whatever though. I will keep wanting to die until I die because I see no hope, honestly. Please do not compare your life with mine because you don’t know the half.
If I use my method, it fails, I’ll be messed up health wise plus I’ll lose my […]
So, I just read that a missing woman has been found this Friday morning after having been missing since Tuesday. She had left her home, going to the grocery store. Her phone has been found in another area from her home, while her vehicle was too. She left behind 3 children and a boyfriend.
After reading her story, the decease makes a way into your heart because we all can relate to having wanted to commit suicide. Sometimes we never really know if we have talked with them on here before, as she was only an hour from me.
All I can think of is how much […]
I found out that two supposedly people close to the family put black magic voodoo on me. One that is near my age who I was told is envious of me made a spell for me to not conceive anymore, for people and myself to not get along, for men to not desire me and cursed my lover who died in an auto accident in 2011 to die. Two crazy sociopaths have won, as I have done no wrong to those mf’s. I am scared to go to the next step of death, as I got my package 3 days ago, I feel guilt because […]
This will probably be my last post. Stay encouraged in your life pursuits. Goodbye
They say that suicide is linked to mental illness, but new report’s have found that not all are mentally ill. Has anyone found out recently that they have a mental illness? Or just come to terms their diagnosis? If you suffer from depression, do you consider yourself mentally ill? I use to want to be a psychiatrist before I officially dropped out of college, then I got a prospective from both ends of the spectrum. No one knows who you are on here, open up.
It’s sad when you have intentions on being deceased in a few days. All I’ve been doing is being in my bedroom this weekend. I guess my illness has got worse. Plus I am back to work tomorrow.
I just called a phone psychic service and was told that they can’t talk about health, pregnancy or legal. Therefore, leading me to call another to directly avoid those topics. So, I called one who said she was clairvoyant and she was very short, saying that we have choices and got off the phone. I want one to able to come before you and tell you something that I can deeply relate to. Her reading I could relate to but wanted more so I called another, it’s seems she wanted to encourage me to live with the 7 minutes of things she said, like create […]
Staying with family can be miserable for some, especially with a brother that steal family members money while they sleep and an uncle that’s pressuring you for more rents and a clean house 24/7 because he now manages the house money from a distance. Now my abusive brother’s father wants to come back around who I don’t like. I work fulltime with a vehicle note and everyone depends on it but I pay the big bill. I have chronic physical pain everyday and have a brain injury. I just want to die, I see Kate Spade’s bravery, not to disrespect and think I can do […]
Anyone have something to talk about? I’m just here thinking about methods as an overweight person, prospective failed attempts and not wanting to take 200 tablets.
I don’t like the feeling that I’ve lost. I’m overweight and it’s not easy finding a method for me. Not interested in a failed attempt and excuse me if all I talk about is wanting death because I never thought I’d turn out like this. I look at my few immediate family members, with a small hole in my heart by not wanting to be here. My body aches, my head aches, I have to work, no close friend’s anymore; it hurts to look my mother in the face because I know she wants the best for me, success in all but I know I […]
Up researching methods, can’t share but I hope that I find an exit.
I told my mom that I wanted euthanasia. I asked if she hit the lottery for a million dollars, if she’d pay for the procedure. She said no and I asked why, she said that it has no value. Keep in mind that I deal with chronic pain/fibromyalgia/fatigue to say the least. I told her that it’s a form of a medical bill. To myself, someone would have to pay for funeral cost anyhow. Do you think this act is selfish of her not to want to support euthanasia or just a choice? I just believe that I’d support my child, especially having known they’ve […]
I am depressed, hard to hold a job, had a brain injury 10 year’s ago. Today, I was suppose to commit suicide but everytime I put the rope around my neck, I can’t seem to move the stool up from underneath me. I have nothing to live for, as I don’t want to date anymore either. Wish that I had something orally that I can take. 36 years old.