Wisp

Not really suicide related

I’m going to sound really whiny here… as if I should just shut up and be grateful and be glad I’m able to go overseas for a little while.

If I said I wasn’t enjoying it here, I’d be lying. Think about it though, spend a few fun days overseas and then come back to your miserable life again… is it worth it to you?

Also its easy to fall into an illusion, you somehow spend so much more $$$$ than what you originally planned to. Or maybe you suddenly think that everyone is wonderful.

Anyway, I guess this is food for thought. But […]

It appears that I haven’t died in a plane crash. So I’m still alive. Meh, I say.

Ok thanks for putting all of my comments in the trash, I see I’m not welcome here. Bye. Take care everyone…

I’m going overseas soon for a few days.. I hope I die in a plane crash…

Booked a ticket on a whim to fly somewhere. Oops. I regret it. Oh well lol, I’d better go. I did kind of want to go there anyway…

Maybe it will be some nice prep for when I see my LDR boyfriend irl. I have not been overseas in years. I don’t like all the mucking around that comes with flying.

August is a bit over a month away, this is when I’ll see my LDR boyfriend again in person… if I last that long. I don’t want to wait that long :/ what if something bad happens to me between now and then????

I don’t really even […]

Emotional abuse is forever. It never leaves you.

Why can’t I see my LDR boyfriend really soon for a month or so? So what if he needs to work…. I still want to see him. I have the means. Gosh what is the problem? This is really annoying. Wouldn’t most people in LDRs jump at the chance to meet? Maybe I should just respect the fact that he just wants to meet in August. As I keep explaining though, I’m willing to pay for everything. We don’t need to spend every waking hour together. I want to see how he actually lives. I don’t want him to drop everything while I’m there just […]

Sometimes I really get the urge to get myself run over if I’m outside.

Just a reminder:
It might pay to be vague and/or cryptic in posts if you are extremely worried that certain people might see them and you don’t want them to (friends, family, etc), especially if you absolutely don’t want said people to potentially identify who you are through your posts.

Once you put something on the internet it can be very difficult to remove it, if it can be removed at all. People can take a screenshot of webpages on their phone and computer. And they can save your pictures. People can choose to post this on other websites.

A general rule is; once it’s online, its […]

Not suicide related

Is it really scary going overseas alone? Thinking of going soon. I have more than enough to cover the trip. Would be for around 3 weeks-1 month. Just so worried!!! Mostly because of customs. Canada if anyone is wondering….

I really just wanna quit my job and end my life. I wonder why I haven’t been sacked or lost my hours yet? 3 hours a day so I’m already very underemployed. I don’t have the energy to find another job. The idea of working sucks. Everything sucks. Meh

the appeal of having a local boyfriend gets stronger and stronger… (I have an long distance boyfriend who lives a few thousand k’s from me)
But I want this to work out.
I can’t give up so easily. I just can’t see this going anywhere. The prices of rentals there seem to be pretty much almost extortionate. Makes the prices here seem very cheap in comparison. There has to be something, right. Maybe he’s not looking hard enough?
Let’s face it, I don’t think anyone wants to live in a rundown, dirty dump with horrible neighbours.
It’s going to really suck if we just meet […]

It’s natural to pick on others who are deemed to be ‘weaker’ than you. This is not only human nature. Of course there are always exceptions to the rule…

Doesn’t mean it’s ok to do this, but it happens and always will happen.

I don’t see the point in going on anymore!

Ugh, I remember last time I met my ldr (was then online) boyfriend I had waited around 1 year and 3 months.
We only got back together like 3 months ago (he broke up with me for a few months in between) and I’m so impatient. Ugh fuck this! why can’t I just be patient. Stupid me.

Not everyone who wants to die has an illness (physical, mental, etc).
Some people just want to die.

I’m not right in the head

Life is so stupid and boring (I’ve tried to make it less boring).
I have a few thousand K and I still cannot meet my LDR boyfriend in real life again.
That’s what he had when he last came to see me in real life last year. I’m starting to think that he doesn’t really want to meet again despite what he says.
I have the money, what’s the issue? lol!

Life is actually so boring I consider drinking!!!

…even if the girl was happy and smiling and had her arms seemingly lovingly around him while the guy has a straight face and stands there like a seemingly lifeless entity. He isn’t even touching her at all, let alone has his arms around her. Man, if this isn’t a joke this has gotta be one of the most off wedding pics i’ve seen!

Then again, I’ll probably never have any kind of wedding before I die… :/

Oh well. I hope all goes well for them.

NOM!!!
Cake is NOM!!!!
*Nibbles

Ugh why do certain foods make me burp and burp and burp and gassy? ugh! Alot of the time I’m bloated too, it sucks, I feel that I have to suck my stomach in… I’m not fat -_-

Sometimes the gas is painful too until I can burp it all out. I wonder if anyone else has the same problem. Maybe I’ll become a gasbag and be done with it.

I don’t wanna be a gasbag…

Yup, on numerous occasions I’m holding in burps as well lol…

First world problem, I know… it just sucks. Seems like nobody else has this issue, or they won’t admit it.