Hi guys. you can call me Daz. 5-6 years ago I used to use this site, when I was 15. I have logged onto this site for the first time since then and have read over all my previous posts. I was severely suicidal, I don’t know how I managed but I did. Years later, I’m still here. I hung on. I was bullied a lot in school by many fuckers, I’m gay and knew it back then and that was one of the main reasons I wanted to die, growing up in a homophobic household and area in rural Ireland. I cut myself for […]
Why am i here, Just because of family The only reason i’m in the f*cking place, All the names on this site are also different than they were the last time i was on, The days just go by, I’m nothing anymore..
My Only friend told me last night shes feeling suicidal, Why? her too having to feel like this.. Then she said all these nice things about me being a good friend and all but she does’nt even know who that i’m suicidal and feel like her, I can’t tell her.. No body knows how i feel Just me.. I’m scared for her, Don’t want her to feel like this, Shes incredible, I hate this world i just want to leave but don’t want to hurt anyone
Phone rings
Don’t wanna pick it up
I’m so scared
I’m gonna say too much
I tip toe around your questions
Why you gotta dig so deep?
Tears fall
And the glasses break
Inside these walls
The floor boards shake
From outside
It’s alright
Long as you looking from fifty feet
I been trying trying
Hold my head up high
I been lying lying
Keeping it all inside
Trying not to trust you, yeah
Take another leaf, I’m broke yeah yeah?
I’m done, I give up
I don’t wanna pretend no more
That’s it, so what
I’ve lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is
No […]
Hey So i started cutting since the last time i posted here.. The day after that 2 of my kinda friends saw the cuts.. For a day or so katie H was concerned then she forgot afterwards.. Nearly got caught couple of times when i had my sleves up and have gotting away with it, the cuts are fading now but have to get togged out tomorrow for p.e so hope nobody notices the cuts, Might’nt bother doing p.e have a cough anyway, can use that as an excuse..
Anyway We and only good friend kJ became friends again but don’t think we are […]
Hey guys,
The last time i post on this site was thursday i think. I was trying to make a fresh start but things kinda changed the next day when a girl from my school died from a burst appendix. Today i was at her funeral and it was very sad. She did’nt have many friends sadly and was an only child i could hardly keep my tears away today at the funeral. Why was’nt it me? since i want to die.
I did’nt even know her well but i was still depressed as it should’ve been me and she did’nt deserve to die […]
All i wanna say is i am gonna make a fresh start. I know that it probabley won’t make a difference but i’m gonna try anyway.
You should too even if you know it won’t make a difference, Just try..
🙁 Depressed as shite today.
I don’t wanna try anymore..
Sorry don’t pay any attention to this..
Hi
The reason im posting this is because i want to get this off my chest.
I’m 15 and have being suicidal for nearly 2 years now. Before the last few months i was’nt serious about suicide but now i am and need to do this.
I’ve lost alot of friends over the last following months basically pushed them away. 11 months ago a girl local commited suicide,it did’nt no her that well but she had tons of friends, she was good looking, i guess she was just depressed like me.I don’t have uch friends, i have a couple who are friends but not close, […]
Hi
This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]
Hi guys
ill try and make this short.i have being feeling like committing suicide for the last 2 years. i badly want too but i guess i’m scared of hurting my family, i don’t want to hurt them i’m not saying i’ve got great relationship with my family but i do obviously care deeply about them.. I’m very sad and i must suffer from depression,, i don’t cut myself or anything. I feel so sad everyday i get up is terrible everything is a constant struggle… I do feel for so many people that have posted on this site.. I have a […]
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i’m 15 and feeling suicidal. i have felt like this for the last 2 years, things have being getting worse every day and this is wrecking my head. i’m so sad and i no there is teenagers and adults in the world that have much worse lives than i have. i hate going to school going anywhere in public, i’ve lost so many friends in school over this because i guess i’ve changed, i just want to die but the only thing is stopping me is my family especially my mum i don’t want to hurt her. Life is really not easy especially feeling […]