Oh, fuck it, stop saying it gets better, just stop… it’s a bad joke.
I mean, why is it, that people genuinely don’t want me to die, “oh no, please don’t kill yourself, i mean, we’ll still hate you, you won’t accomplish anything, and even if you could, we won’t let you because we hate you, remember?”
It’s like they can smell it on me, how ‘pathetic’ and ‘retarded’ I am, fuck, even online, people seem to avoid me or stamp me out like the plague…
Really, they just don’t want to feel guilty for being a shit, and if they get a good laugh out of it, that’s great too.
Is there anyone out there who isn’t a shit? Trick question.
Even here, it seems people only care if you can magically get better, or snap and kill yourself, just as long as they don’t have to put some effort into anything that doesn’t pertain to themselves.
Don’t worry, I’ll try not to bother you by aspiring to anything or wanting love/friendship, I know I don’t deserve it, but the least you could do is just let me off the hook.
Be honest, do you ‘care’ because you think some sky-douche is watching you? Because you think it makes you look good? Because it will get you what you want? Because you like your idea of someone?
And if you do actually have a soul, is it just me? Am I not ‘pretty’ enough? Do I not have enough potential? Is it because I won’t kiss your ass? If it’s not just me, do you really think I’d believe you anymore?
Discuss? Shitpost? Ignore? Fake some sympathy? Delete this post, ban me, and call it a day? Do whatever you want.
Oh yeah, by the way… trigger warning 😛