My mom just gave birth to a baby girl which means i now have 4 sisters. I’m afraid that she’ll end up to hate the world,to feel unwanted and to feel like she needs to be perfect like the other 3. I want this baby to be positive about everything,to believe,to hope,to think that everything isn’t based on appearance and that everyone should be excepted. I want her to be open minded and open hearted like i am. Me as the first born watched as my mother attempted to raise us all in hate but i was the only one able to wake up and […]
Yeah I hate who I am completely now.
I’m insecure about my weight I’m 14 and last time I weighed myself (6 months ago) I weighed 124 lbs. and im 5’4 is that fat? I think Ive become anorexic because i limit myself to 1 meal a day and I starve myself as punishment.
My self-esteem is so low even though it was so high. Ive made it a hobby to compare myself to my girlfriends ex’s it’s torture but what can I say.
My stupid social anxiety is what I hate the most though >:( its gets in the way and I’ve told my […]
Well if the title doesn’t say it all today sucked for me,well this is what happened. I’m on my break idk why but yea a week of no school ends today 🙁 I decided to hang with my best friend J and my girlfriend A and we started off at the mall ten we went to A’s house and stayed there a while. While at A’s house I was texting J’s crush B and we started secretly talking and A asked what we were saying and I int know what to do so I said no because B used to be her ex so […]
Hey,I’m just wondering if anyone wants to talk,it could be about anything really I’m all ears 🙂 well anyways I wanna get to know you people maybe we could become friends or maybe I could just be like one of those confession box type if things. You could tell me anything really and I wouldn’t judge,I want you to e as honest as possible with me and in return I will be honest with you so email me animecat9@aol.com I know it’s everywhere but I’m kinda bored and like I said I wanna get to know you people 🙂 so feel free to email me […]
You know I enjoy being an empath I really do but right now it sucks big time. Since I am an empath and not a very strong one at that but still I’m pretty capable and stuff, my moms boyfriend moved in with us and for those who don’t know he is a pedophile big time anyways so yeah he moved out and now he is moving in again. Everything was normal until he showed signs of a second attempt but he had moved out before anything could have been done. He moves in for the 3rd time and as an empath it completely disgusts […]
Damn it it thought I was done but guess what? I’m starting to cut AGAIN! God damn this shit after I was good for 8 months but I guess all that’s down the drain now. I’m mad,sad and frustrated with myself. The past 2 days I’ve been finding out that my closest friends also cut as well so we made like this support group for us and we don’t have a name so it’s ok but we all support each other in there and I like it but now,I have to go to school tomorrow and my best friend also cut today it was her […]
I don’t know does it even count I mean well I guess I’ll ask you guys.ok so the past few days I’ve been poring alcohol over any cuts or scraps on my body just to feel the pain and I just wanna know is that self harm to? Whatever well I think the actual cutting is gonna start up again I don’t know :/ but yea I porpusly let any scraps/cuts get infected and in the end of the day I just poor rubbing alcohol or poroxide on them. I wanna know does it count as self harm to?
I the my family I see no porpuse for them.they say that they will be there for ou no matter what but that’s just a big lie…my families the worst my moms a stupid whore who hates her kids but got herself pregnant again.she isn’t a real mother all se does is verbally abuse us,I swear I don’t even consider her as my mother jut because I can’t be related to her,I just won’t except it I’m the only one sane in my house.my mons says I just look Luke my father that’s why I’m different from my sisters but I don’t care my dada […]
Well for the people who don’t know last year, 7th grade was the one time in my life that I wish I could change. The year I figured out who I really was and what I really wanted to do. It was also the year I had gotten sexually abused for the 4th time by my mothers boyfriend :’). I’ve noticed my sexual abusers are always linked to my family in some way and they go on for long periods of time :/. Anyways he had moved in with us and stuff and then things started happening like very small unnoticeable things until the big […]
Haven’t slept for 3 days and I have a feeling this might be the 4th.no ones except me and some kids in my class who was actually concerned about why I’m so tired all the time. Well the first 2 days were spent with me getting yelled at for falling asleep in class do today I decided that I wasn’t gonna get yelled at again,I drank an energy this morning and had a whole bunch of caffeine that kept me up and about all day but I was still out of it.i don’t know what I’m gonna do about tomorrow though just because I’m broke […]
Wow I haven’t cried in forever :’) this sucks really. Well heres the deal,I’m losing another one of my best friends yea what is this the 3rd one? I only have 4 friends I could actually count on and who actually understand me. The one friend I thought I would have forever just cause we’ve been together Forever haha 3years I guess was too long *sigh* well there goes my damn twin/big bro he was the only reason I’m still alive,te only reason I woke up in te morning now…I just don’t know what to do. Yea people are probably thinking “so what wow you […]
I turned 14 on the 3rd
I have been sexually abused around 4-5 times
I recently found out in an empath and can see/feel spirits
I am bisexual
I have a girlfriend
I have forgiven my sexual abusers
I self diagnosed myself with a chronic social anxiety disorder
I have a needle phobia,its pretty bad
My favorite color is any shade of green except normal green 🙂
I am fairly happy
I survived chronic depression without medication or a therapist
I hate my mother
I love mismatched socks
I dress emo
My favorite band at the moment is Botdf
My girlfriend is cheating on me […]
Hello it’s been awhile since I’ve been in this but I’m back and I wanna help all of you.Everyhing stays confidential and I will try to help in what ever way I can.I won’t judge anyone because we are all in the same position here,I just wanna help people and try to make there lives just a little bit bearable.i don’t think anyone should commit suicide but that isn’t my choice so I won’t stop you in that decision.you don’t have to tell me anything immediately we could just be friends first or whatever you want but I am very understanding so please let me […]
 My grandmother just accused me of haveing anorexia and if theres one thing i know i do not whatsoever have an eating disorder and i am not in denile right now.Im not eating suuuuure because im not hungry can’t people understand that i mean i know your worried because i almost passed out on the street today but that’s not because im not eating i mean i was HOT today and i also have a throat infection and stuff like that and then i ad like 2 sweaters on cuz my grandma thought it was gonna be cold.Honestly eating disorders is a confusing topic with […]
Ok sooooooooooo yea ive kinda changed i officially despise my mom god i wanna see her get run over by a fucking bus,i hate her boyfriend fuckin pedophile piece of shit one of these days im gonna pull the Lorena Bobbitt on your ass,im athiest now i say fuck someone you cant see not judgeing religeon and i figured out im bi ive told my parents but they tottaly think it’s a joke don’t be surprised if i bring a girl home!!!Ive thought about alot the past few months/weeks watever it has been if u think of it this way you know how people tell […]
Just wondering is anyone like an empath on here i mean i think im one but im not really sure thats why i need help cuz i wanna find out if it might be possible that im an empath or something like that so yea if u are one or you kinda wanna help me figure this out just email me or something at animecat9@aol.com
Hey guys havent been here in a looooooooooooooooong time so i just wanna say welcome newcomers and R.I.P for the already gone.Ok back to bussiness,i wanna help you guys out because i understand the pain and suffering you all might be going through and im being serious about this.I am not a shrink or if anyone is concerned a blood sucker and i am deffinitally not one of your parents in disguise.I just wanna help if anybody wants to talk either let loose and tell me your problems or concerns and i will try to give you the best advice i possibly can or if […]
My teacher reported me to the guidance counceler and during 7th period she asked me if we could talk.I was like fuck cuz she called my social studies teacher (class i was in at that time)and it was on the 1st floor and the guidance councelers office is in the 4th floor UUUUUGH!!!!! so yea the whole way there im givin myself a pep talk im saying to myself you can do this ana all you gotta do is lie.So i got to her office and she explains how everything i say will stay in this room unless i think your in any danger so […]
HAPPY ST.PATTY’S DAY!!!!!!!!!=-D Well ive been tired of faking the smile in school and noooooooooow my homeroom teacher keeps asking whats wrong because apparently ive been “depressed” and nooooooooooow she’s gonna hand in a note to the guidance councelor stateing how unhappy ive been lately.Im too lazy to tell her that “nothing’s wrong” and that im just too tired to talk but watever so tomorrow if the guidance councelor wants to talk she’s gonna have to call a meeting during school hours because there’s noway in hell im gonna have a meeting with her after school.Especially if my grandma is picking me up (and she […]
my email is animecat9@aol.com my aim is animecat9 just the way its typed.We can chat about anything.BTW if i dont post in a while its either because im dead,in a hospitle for attempted suicide,in jail for murder(im serious) just given ya a head start.