My disfunctional family :/

I the my family I see no porpuse for them.they say that they will be there for ou no matter what but that’s just a big lie…my families the worst my moms a stupid whore who hates her kids but got herself pregnant again.she isn’t a real mother all se does is verbally abuse us,I swear I don’t even consider her as my mother jut because I can’t be related to her,I just won’t except it I’m the only one sane in my house.my mons says I just look Luke my father that’s why I’m different from my sisters but I don’t care my dada died in a car accident when I was 4 and I don’t remember it care for him.my friend asked me what I would I do if he came back I answered her simply I would hate him she asked me why I told if he would come back why did he leave in the first place? Every night I wonder if he was alive would he have the done the same thing as every one else? Who he touch me to?i look at photos of us together and I just look at them with no recognition he’s just another random guy to me so I don’t care.my grandmother is obsessed with weight just because she used to be a model for fucks sales I eat 1 meal a day and she still calls me fat I don’t eat at all and she calls me anorexic what does she want?! My mom and I we just don’t. Get along and I hate her guts a d I know for a fact she hates mine.she talks about me behind my back to my sisters and she poisons their minds I think she does it on porpuse cuz she knows I’ll hear it eventually she tells them that I’m a whore that I’m easy and because I’m bisexual she told them that I would have sex with animals wig I would never do. She tells them Im poisoning the family and now 2 of my sisters are against me the youngest I’m sure she’s gonna either be bisexual or just lesbian cuz of the way shes acting and my mother drilled into her mind that it’s wrong and I’m trying to convince her that it’s ok. My mom and my sister ruin all social contact I have with people which result in me having only 5 friends in my life and I only trust 2. Idk I just hate having a family especially when your mom pretends to live you outside but behind closed doors she threatens to kill ou or beat you with a golf club…I’m afraid of her I believe that she’s gonna beat or kill me one day….she told me that I wasn’t te mistake but everyone else after me was and I told her I bet that she wished I was te mistake…idk I stay away from her as much as I could. My dysfunctional family 🙁