I have a class called Group guidance and the guidance counceler is the teacher and by friday i need to bring in a long-term goal.I have a goal but if i give it in it will seriously bring me into her office and i don’t want that.Any suggestions on a long-term goal that will not land me in a guidance councelers office.Really appreciate it.
Last night well yea the title says it all and now im seriously depressed.I feel dirty.It started out as a normal day watched a couple of movies and stuff.My younger sisters went to bed so it was me,him and the second oldest cuz it wasn’t her bed time yet (my mom was in manhatten for wedding stuff my uncles getting married)So my sister puts on a zombie movie and i really didn’t want to watch that so my “step”dad was all like he was going to the room and whoever wanted to join him can go so im like ok cuz i wanna play my D.S and […]
Ive never been bullied…EVER(ayone who misunderstood my last post)Anyway…I don’t like when my mom’s mad not for the reason anyone’s thinking.Whenever my mom is mad i feel all her negative energy everywhere and that get’s me really depressed especially because when my mom is mad she starts talking shit about everyone wich gets me depressed to because i don’t like when people do that.My mom goes over the top she just has to be a ***** on porpuse wich causes a volcano to erupt in my house and the sparks are flying not to mention plates and other objects they broke a shelf while they […]
Why are people mean is it just human nature i mean wasn’t there a time when people could just get along is there ever gonna be a time like this or am i just dreaming.Speaking of dreams ive been having weird ones like they’re really disturbing.My teacher says people who are mean or bully or talk about others are just trying to make themselves feel better wich is pretty sad cuz in reality your just gonna feel worse about yourself.My teacher also said that people who do those things have a crappy life and thats pretty depressing too.I feel bad for anyone that feels so low […]
Ok reading the comments on my last post…THAT SCARED THEÂ SHIT OUT OF ME!!!Im seriously reconcidering …..But that still does not mean im not gonna end it…sooner or later…I guess you guys really saved me…………………………
I need these questions answered before i kill myself.Can a 13 year old girl die if she jumped of a six floor building?What can happen if i live through the jump?Can you die from taking 10 500mg. pain killers?What can happen if i live through that?And if anybody knows how it feels to overdose on pills that would be very helpful?Can i live if i jump in front of a train?Well that’s about it.Im planning on ending it on monday or something so yea.This probably the last chance for some of you guys to tell me your stories or get advice cuz you know i […]
I bet my family thinks i have an eating disorder or that iim on a crazy diet especially my grandma because im not eating at home well excuse me for not being hungry but i do find it weird aswell i wonder why i don’t get hungry anymore?that’s really weird because im not planning on starving myself that would be too slow…
For anyone new or who never got the memo:Okay people i want to try and help some of you and im NOT gonna try and stop you from ending it unless you want me to and my life isn’t getting any better if that’s what anyone’s thinking i just think that maybe some of you people would want to get the weight off your shoulders before you end it i mean i know i wouldn’t want to have all that crap it’ll just make me feel bad even when im dead you get what i mean?I guess i just wanna help anyone get through the tough times […]
When darkness is near,
We start to hear our doubts and flaws,
We silently cry,
We want to die,
It’s clear we aren’t loved,
Abondoned by our parent’s,
Adults lie to us,
Tell us the worlds fine,
That’s a lie,
The world is full of evil and cry,
Critisized by the ones we trust,
Ostracised by people like us,
Im walking in the dark no direction,
Waiting for my ressurection,
We start feeling insecure,
You say you love us we’re not sure,
You say you want us thoughs are lies,
Lies that are crushing my insides,
We’re a disease you can’t cure,
All the lies we have to indure,
Until the day we realize,
There’s no point,no point to cry,
Just disapear inside yourself,
Invisible is how we […]
I heard in the radio that people are dieing from suicide every 15 minutes.I was just wondering does anyone know if that’s true or are thet just exagerating.SPRING BREAK’S HERE!!! im pretty sad about that cuz now i have to stay home all the time wich really sucks cuz my mom and her craooy boyfriends there (my sister’s went to my grandparents house)My mom threatened me yesterday she was like i can change your schools you know and i can send you off to your grandparents to live so better for me.Im not afraid of the future or the past or the present i really […]
Ive been thinking alot lately.We’re all gonna die eventually by some say either sickness or accident or even old age.Personally i would like to die by my own hands.My teacher says before when she use to wish she could die she regeted it because now she has the best job and she loves her life now.I don’t want to wait for the future because you don’t know what might happen i mean you mught end up in the streets for all you know.
One of my friends was sexually abused by their uncle so she left school early to go talk to her lawyer cuz she’s going to court tomorrow she’s pretty nervous but i didn’t know what to say after that and that’s a first because i always have advice but when she told me that my mind stopped…I cut myself last night so…yea…im thinkin of hanging myself…or just slice and dice im not sure yet…I got in trouble in math i was in a really crappy mood so i didn’t do my work i just drew captain underpants in my book.My teacher said he really wanted […]
i haven’t been doing my h.w in a LONG time…really… my house is WAY to noisy to get ANYTHING done.Todays valentines day EEW that means im gonna hear my parents do the nasty = l not happy about it…I might fail the WHOLE grade…im gonna get SUCH a beating if that happens…hmmm…i joined the literary magazine in my school and im gonna give them one of my DEATH poems so that should be really interesting plus thats the only thing i can write about.I swear my guidance counceler is fallowing me.Im seeing her EVERYWHERE i go i think it’s because my teacher told her about […]
Why do i feel like this??? : (
On friday i had a can of bug spray in my bookbag (i forgot to take it out in the morning)and i accidently put my binder on top of it so it started spraying all over my bookbag (thank god it was the end of class) i had to run to the bathroom wash my binder rap the can in toilet paper and threw it in the garbage then i wrote about it in my journal i write all the fights my parents have in there and i write some other thngs to one day im going to get it published soooo my lil sister […]
Do you have a low self-esteem or a high one? personally i dont really know what i have i mean i tell everyone im awsome and i guess i believe it myself but i always feel empty inside and i honestly dont know why.My teacher was to busy today so she couldnt tell the guidance councelor about my poem but she’ll probably tell her tomorrow i keep getting this feeling that whenevr the guidance councelor does come to see me that she’ll pull me out of math class and we have this class in school called group guidance were they stick classes of 7th graders […]
Something weirds been happening ive changed this year ALOT in 5th grade i went through my depression stage then came 6th grade and i became all happy and stuff but now its 7th grade and im starting to remember i mean i guess ive always remembered i mean ive pratically tortured myself with the memories even though it happened like 4 yrs ago i guess cant really remember but this year its really hitting me with a BANG!!! so with the memories and my parents fighting things arent looking so good for me but im trying to hang on and all you other people here should […]
Is it wrong not to hate a person even if that person did something unforgiveable cuz i dont know i dont allow myself to get angry and i dont believe in hate i think your truely bad when you let hate run your life… ANYWAY This weekend was great their was no fighting and nothing.On saterday we found a stray dog its a white minature poodle and we’re looking for the owner but so far no luck my aunt is supposed to be takeing it.The family called it whitney because we found it on whitney ave.UUUGH!!! I might get my report card tomorrow i should […]
first things first if your gonna comment (optional) can you pleaz state your age and current location oh and your sex cuz this whole things got me confused. ive had a couple of interesting days ummm let me think on sunday my mom screamed at me for no apparent reason she told me to stop with my attitude AND i swear i was gonna kill myself or my sub-dad GOD!!! wat he did was unexeptible you wanna know wat he did? HE the fucking asshole hurt my precious puppy soufle and i havent cried in years and for HIM  to do that to her i just burst […]
Ive officially lost my marbles ive been blanking out more then usual sometimes i do stupid things when i blank out.For example,yesterday in school we were eatin lunch my friends A and P got up to go somewhere and my friend Y comes out sayin that i purposley tried to trip them she said i stuck my foot out and everything and keep in mind i have no reccolection of this what so ever.I did something BAD last night Y and P already knew about me getting molested.I kinda texted them both and again keep in mind i have been molested this is exactly what i texted […]