I do not have access to medications where I am at. I just have some extra strength otc sleeping pills and something else but its more natural so I think I need something a bit stronger to add…can anyone give me some tips?
solange
The past couple of nights I have mixed sleeping pills and vodka just to sleep. I know I would have to up the amount of both quite a bit to not wake up.
I am wondering though..my energy has managed to drop lower now and I physically feel quite strange. Definitely weaker but starting to physically feel numb in places. I didn’t throw up though.. so..well I’m not sure why I’m posting this…maybe subconsciously hope that someone give an opinion or support..I’m really not sure.
I just need to get a chance to clear things up with someone before I actually try to end everything […]
anyone know how long it takes to bleed out if u cut along side the vein?
I’m very curious as to how a person seems unable to tell if someone else is very drunk.
Sometimes I just want to scream at him – tell him to open his damn eyes and see whats right in front of him, but I know what will happen if I do that so I keep my mouth shut… well i try…but I often resort to sarcasm. He can’t even see how depressed I am. No matter how much I talk about death and the fact that I am not going to be around much longer..it just goes right over his damn head.
I crave to end all of my pain…suffering and all of these haunting memories…why have I not even heard from him since quite early Monday morning? I worry about him.he is the last thing/ which I truly love.. without him the person I have become is nothing but a nuisance to my family. I do not wish to become a burden…I just want to disappear forever…and make sure that HE is safe and happy…
I worried that he would use work as a loop hole to get out of talking to me.. and i am worried that I was right.
I thought everything would be over back in October. Yet I couldn’t go through with it because I thought that maybe despite his actions he cared.
I have given everything to him…heart body and soul. I would do ANYTHING for him.
Last month however, we were both at a lunch with mutual friends…he couldn’t even say anything to me. I have helped him with his work, I have done everything I can think of to make his life better…but […]
I have come so close to ending it, but like a coward I freaked out, then I sent a text and I made him promise that he would talk to me. It could be at least 4 days tho. Thing is I don’t think he knows how severely depressed I am. What I’ve already done in preparation not to mention what I did back in march. I’ve distanced myself and he’s the last one I want to talk to. I don’t even know if it will help at all getting answers from him but if it doesnt…I’m ready.
Anyone have tips for sharpening knives? It seems a bit on the dull side for my liking.
Like a lot of people, I have been afraid to end things. I thought of overdosing but I’m afraid of waking up. So I have been considering a different way which is more violent but I think it would be more effective…
I have a history with knives so I feel more comfortable using that…well at least as far as making sure its effective.
Every day that goes by is consumed with fantasies of ending all the pain I feel..desperate to be free of these hopeless thoughts, painful memories and broken dreams.
Even in sleep I cannot shake the desire to end my so called life. I enjoy those dreams..i feel so close to peace within those dreams..but then I wake up.. despite the constant wishing the nights before, that I will not open my eyes ever again.
Each day these fantasies seem to get more graphic and more tempting..
I am new to posting on this site, after reading many posts for a while now.
Short summary of the reason I am here:
I have suffered from depression for a long time now…I didn’t hurt myself for about 6 years but then I realized that for almost 5 of those years…I was holding onto something that I never truly had. A one sided friendship..that meant more to me than anything else. I realized that I am not good enough for him..that I deserve to be treated the way that he treats me.
I have nothing left to loose..no one knows me…not really. They […]