So in five days a television show will be in the area and they are looking for extras. I really want to go and do it, I could careless about pay or time I just want the experience as my acting resume is very small. However my mom is one of those anti-fame/ anti-anything that has to do with the industry of acting/singing/performing. She just doesn’t understand. She always complains about celebrities and how they are so dumb and they’re rich for nothing and blah blah. She doesn’t want what I want in life. I’m a high honours student in life but I just don’t […]
I feel so desperate having no where else to vent to but lately I’ve been so alone. My friend and I had a shopping trip and I jokingly say we should have a sisterhood for a sweater and she says “I might be able to fit into your clothes but our other friend definitely  won’t ” and she may not realize it but that was her calling me fat. I hate when she always hints indirectly that I am the fat friend. And I’ve been on my way loosing weight. I’ve lost 15 so far and plan on another 30 but I just don’t think […]
So, ive been trying to make an ‘awareness video’ about recovery and relapse and how HARD it is. I feel as though many people forget about you once you say that you’re in recovery and they forget that even though you dont go and talk to someone once however often that you still do struggle. I just wanted to basically put out there that there needs to be more support and awareness for people in recovery and those who relapse. So anyhow point is I’d like other people to put their imput in and possibly talk about their story (on or off camera because it […]
Finding out the one person who finally keeps you cut free and possibly your first love is the person you could never be with. Like you make me feel better, but it’s the you that you show to me. Not the you, you really are. I find out that I don’t ever know you well, you lie, you keep things from me. How can I trust you fully? I hate situations like this.
He allowed me to look at his phone so I decided to check out his pics. I find picture of nude men and him in a womans wig + pics that look a […]
My bestfriend told me today that he was close to killing himself but instead cut himself. I feel like I’m somehow responsible for it because I too cut. I feel like I almost kind of planted that idea in his head that it is an option because I told him about my cutting. But it makes me feel invisible, like after all I;ve told him about NOT starting and ot never do it because it’s addicting and he does. I want to tell him cutting isn’t good or the right answer, but thats so hypocritical! Like telling someone don;t cut, but it’s okay for me […]
I think it would be neat to meet someone like me. Someone who wouldn’t judge me, or try to change me because they’d understand me. Anyone from NS, Canada? Maybe willing to talk in person one day?
*Please, no creeps 🙂
Its almost the summer, and i feel alittle paniced. Ive decided i would like to die in the summer time, none of my friends will every know im gone next year at school. However life has basically just put an obsticle in my way. my best guy friend, i now have feelings for. maybe i even love him?(even puppy love) Its taring me in two. a part of me wants him BAD. I feel jealous when i see him with other girls, when he posts heart on other girls walls. I want him so bad and i dont know why. I just want to kiss […]
is anyone on here from canada? i recently seen a post about someone in ohio so i was just wondering about canadians. and if you are what province?
I wish i had the courage to die, i wish i werent such a wimp and would just do the deed. I honestly can’t find a reason to live anymore. Any help i get is just a waste, any ‘hope’ story is just depressing. Everything is depressing. I just can’t take it. I can’t be honest with my therapist because she has proven how fast she’ll go and tell my dad. My dad is getting tired of taking me to therapy, i can tell he wants it to end but he doesnt get how bady i still need to go. my friends dont know the […]