So in five days a television show will be in the area and they are looking for extras. I really want to go and do it, I could careless about pay or time I just want the experience as my acting resume is very small. However my mom is one of those anti-fame/ anti-anything that has to do with the industry of acting/singing/performing. She just doesn’t understand. She always complains about celebrities and how they are so dumb and they’re rich for nothing and blah blah. She doesn’t want what I want in life. I’m a high honours student in life but I just don’t want that to be my only option! To her my only priority should be what university I want to go to(and she expects it to be a local one, while I want to desperately apply for waterloo which is a few hour plane ride away) Its just so annoying because I don’t want to be like everyone else! I want to explore I want to travel while she is fine with staying in our small town and being a nobody. I’m not fame obsessed or money obsessed I just want excitement and to me acting is exciting! But how the hell am I supposed to get my start in anything if she is always telling me no and getting mad when I ask. Like how do I nicely explain to her that what she wants for me might not be what I want because it’s my life to screw up not hers. She’s just so damn protectivce. I cant even get a drive with someone she doesn’t know. Like how am I supposed to figure out who I am if I can’t explore!!!!!! Like when I graduate in 2 years of course I’ll be responsible and go to university but its just I only have 2 years left to finally be old enough to make my own decisions and she is always telling me no! Like I don’t even know if I want to go to university and for what major I have no idea. Because I have never done anything AT ALL TO FIGURE IT OUT. and im just so frusterated that I just wish I could take my life back. I mean honestly if I wasn;t afraid of death I would die because I just can’t stand being here. I just can’t stand my life because it’s not my life its f*cking hers. she has never been able to achieve anything in her life that she wanted so she just expects that I do everything she wanted to do but its just uggghhh no. In a few months i’ll be getting my liscense and when I do I just want to run away for a bit because what the hell is my purpose in life if I can’t go and figure it out! I just don’t want this life time to be a waste because honestly there might not be another.
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well, I think getting away from parents is good.. so maybe that will work for you..
just be careful and don’t go crazy with the things you do during that time if you really care about acting later.. for example, a baby will likely stop you from achieving your dream.. then your life will become all about the baby, or at least having to pay child support(depending what gender you are..)
and drinking & driving could paralyze you or kill you.. or someone else..
so if you do run away, have fun but keep your career in mind so you will stay careful..
universities can be looked up online and you can check out financial aid/Student loans stuff online too.. maybe a computer at a library or at highschool
I think you should definitely see if you can get a job as an extra there. I don’t think it should interfere with your studies at all.. and in fact will probably help you get further in your studies as well.
This is because universities like students who are well-rounded and show an interest outside their discipline. Acting can help build self confidence as well as develop good teamwork and leadership skills, etc. which apply to real life situations outside of school, university and acting. If you learn how to present yourself well (which you can learn through acting) you’re more likely to get a job given that someone else is also applying with similar grades.
You seem quite young, I’m guessing around 15 or 16 years of age. It’s not unusual for your parents to be quite protective of you and it is okay to act a bit rebellious every now and then to show your parents that you need to learn how to do things for yourself and make your own decisions.
I’m entirely sure that running away when you get your license is the best option.. Maybe on top of your studies, you can look into the extra position, maybe join your school’s drama club and get involved with some shows or maybe you could look into being drama supervisor/volunteer to help other kids to learn to act after school or over the weekends – this is probably show your mum that its not about the fame.. and potentially show her that you’re responsible enough to know what you want..
I don’t know, just a thought, hope it helps.
Thank you! Both are good advice. I never thought to argue acting into university stuff because I have like no extra curriculars so I was a little worried there. But I’m definitely going to try and convince my dad now instead that he Should take me if my mom won’t.