Your voice was the only thing that could calm me down. When I was on the bathroom floor with a bottle of pills and a cold blade in my hand, you were there. You called me and just hearing your voice made me relax and breath. You changed me but you left. I have no idea who i am anymore or what my purpose is. Im lost without you by my side. I cry everyday at the thought that i wont be hearing your voice before i fall asleep. I wont be hearing your voice when i wake up. I wont be getting any sweet […]
I have no idea how long its been since i was last on here but i know its been awhile. I miss coming on the site everyday reading everyone’s stories, trying to help.
This week has been really rough for me. I have had 2 friends who tried killing themselves. Honestly i cant take this anymore. It hurts. I stayed up 2 nights in a row trying to talk one of them out. But it didn’t work…he tried and failed, thank god. I dont know what i would do without him in my life, he has talked me out of suicide a lot. theres something about […]
Starring at my food but I can not eat it,
Laying in my bed but I am not sleeping,
Crying in my room and I keep it top secret,
Because people tell me they care but they do not mean it.
I’m cut open, even thought I am not bleeding.
My heart’s broken, so Imma make it stop beating.
Someone runs in the room and screams,
“He’s not breathing!”
I’m rushed to the hospital to have a Doc treat it,
But he cannot beat it, there`s no time at all,
Cause I just popped some pills with some Tylenol,
And 3 bottles of antidepressants, and Zam […]
wow… i failed once again and im back in the hospital…i dont remember how i got here. All i remember was taking a bottle of pills and then trying to drown myself… then i wake up in the hospital. I remember hearing screaming but then i blacked out again. Next time i need to make sure that door will STAY CLOSED. I wish they had never found me. I wish i was dead. I dont want to be here anymore. Im sick of getting teased all the time. Im sick of guys using me. Im done with them fucking with my feelings. I WANT […]
ive sat in this tub for hours trying to figure out a way to tell you. im sure you are confused as to why i did this to myself. Ill start out with school. I get bullied constantly. everyday im there. i get teased for how i dress and look. how i act and more. I came home crying almost everyday but you never seemed to care. you always told me that it would get better. well 5 years later it never got any better. it just got worse. from a scratch to blood all over my arm and floor. here i lay in a […]
Today people think is a big day. I am now 16 years old. Everyone always talks about having a “Sweet 16.” Like its just another age that youre turning. Its not really that big of a deal to throw all this money into a party.
As for me, Im gonna be sitting in my room on my laptop. All alone. Like always. Turning 16 isnt really much of a big deal to me. Its just another year that ive had to deal with the way i look. I hate the way i look. I wish i was turning 21 so i could drown my sorrows with […]
Some people think that suicide is for weak people. They think that they are taking the easy way out. They think its a selfish act. But its not. For some people its hard to imagine committing suicide, and for others its way too easy. People need to start realizing that bullying leads to suicide. People need to stop bullying. We are all the same on the inside. Some people may not be prettier than the other person but that doesn’t give them a right to bully them. They may not be skinny enough for your taste but you still shouldn’t judge them. Everyone has feelings. […]
(i dont know why its upside down..) This is me. I may not be the prettiest person alive but here i am. I know im not pretty, i hear it everyday from everyone. even my own family. Im used to it. Call me whatever you want. Im a cutter. Im suicidal. This is who i am and nothings going to change that. Ive tried killing myself 8 times. my 8th attempt happened recently about a week ago when people at school started picking on […]
My life hasn’t been perfect to me. I get into fights with people a lot. My family likes to pick on me a lot. Â My sister calls me names all the time. She calls me a *****, a ****, a lesbian, and a dyke. She punches me a lot. Shes made my mouth bleed. I don’t know how she can be so cruel to me. She never acts this way in front of my dad but once my dad leaves the house shes a devil to me. She starts yellin and screamin at me, callin me names. Shes 21 and has a kid. She shouldn’t […]
I recently opened up that im bisexual. I didnt really want to tell anyone but i figured that people will bound to know. I live in a small town and word gets around fast. Well me and my best friend made a joke on facebook saying that we were in a relationship (shes straight). A couple hours later in school i heard that people were laughing and talking shit about us. I then decided to make a status on facebook telling everyone to cut the crap. Like who cares if we were dating, its not hurting anyone. Then an hour later one of my friends […]