Its hard to endure anymore disappointment, just want to sleep and never wake up but there are people who will suffer. Pain will be had by too many. Can not cope but how can I leave her. How selfish must I be to consider the end. The end for me is the answer but how can I make her suffer. She has a life to live hopes and dreams and keeping a brave face is too hard. Hard to pretend your happy when you don’t want to wake up. Its too difficult to stay but harder to ruin someone else.