I don’t want to be here anymore. I regret it everytime I come. If I ever helped someone with my words then great. I know what I did and didn’t do or say to the one I’m sad over. I still endure those feelings, but I did this to myself. Like I’ve always done before and relized it now. If I was thankful for not killing myself when I had the strength to, I would say it. I’m going to be something I loathe, a cut-throat type of person because I know I won’t find happiness like that again. I’ll either […]
And I think it’s working. I don’t feel as bad, as bad I already do. I’m sad ofcourse and thats really all but I’m doing things. Keeping up brushing my teeth and trying to eat better. That’s it SP.
. Atleast alittle.
Now im thinking of how I i spoke and wrote earlier. I wish I didn’t say alot of it. Tomorrow, I will make and eat a good breakfast and begin to exercise, hopefully. Definetly go out for coffee. And back.
Can i stop talking. My words are useless. I am numb and cant love even if i wanted to or when i done before
That is all.
Listening to the calming yet only few sounds I can make while playing guitar. Fighting the tears and thoughts from my memories lastyear. The ex I want to think about, but shouldn’t. Just keeping the watery eyes at bay. Strumming notes and listening to simple sounds.
I feel like theres no reason to live. I’m not moving forward, I’m unemployed, Im not interested in anything. I don’t want to do drugs again but I feel thats the only thing that helps me sleep, and forget all of last year. It blends time together, I have no real skills, my only friends get high and I just move nowhere. I tried talking to that girl. I know I shouldnt have, I guess you could say that I’m weak. Pathetic as she would say. She humors me, but just to get her point through. I don’t want to date, but I do. But […]
Not even here. I was contemplating sui before and sometimes I think of it. But I feel like I don’t relate anymore. I don’t know if I should even be writing this. I don’t think I should be here. But can’t rule myself out just yet. I obviously need or seek help and guidance but, maybe. Why can’t I be normal like I used to be. Just pull myself together like before. I have a hard time reading others’ posts because I don’t know if I’m going through anything other than self pity.
This is challenging for me. But my sister wanted me to come. And it is her bday. So I’m here. Happy bday sister!
Im not good at it. Just strumming and listening to the cords I strike coming through my orange amp. Thats it, im rockin a sad face and glum attitude. I wanted ask Sunflower for a woman’s perspective.. But I got caught up in my guitar, my humbug, and nothingness. Like.. Where did my good slightly scratching the surface attitude go?. It went right into my thoughts
Hey man, I’ve been seeing other women and do you have an email. Or chat on here? I’m doing what i think im supposed to. But seeking more advice on the matter. I like what you and some others say. And think
I thought I was doing good. I was feeling better for a week but it wasn’t just on my own. I started talking to another girl. She was pretty, and we talked great all week. Sending pics back and forth. I was still keeping my guard up, just incase we stop talking. Well I finally met her in real life a week later and I felt like more of a man again. Like I guess thats what confidence is, feels like.. My two feet on the ground, a skinny regular guy, another person a part of this world. Doesn’t matter if I’m rich or poor, […]
I can’t just run away from my problems. I want to.. I was looking for an easy out.. A friend’s, a relative’s, maybe even trying to leave on my own and try to make it. But I can’t, I have to do this.. life, the hard way. I have to struggle, I have to fight, but I’m so tired, exhausted. I want to quit, I want more than anything to just leave everything behind, get to things and just go. But I can’t. I’m not stuck, I could do those things and run.. But I can’t. I have to work, claw, crawl, probably cry along […]
If I could meet anyone in the world famous or not, dead or alive… It would be Rocketman!!
In the led zepplin cover band. I hope he is okay too!. I think its so cool to make zepplin music even so just drumming. I hope he’s good. I missed the whole problems thAT arose with the discussion. But i do hope we can work it out. TOGETHER!
That’s it. Oh and the rest of the gang too!
Thats it.
I just wanted to thank everyone for helping me talk about my problems. No matter how ashamed and embarrased I felt being a 35 yr old man. Crying and sobbing and contemplating killing myself because of a girl that I fell in love with that just threw me away. I want to name names but there are so many that helped. I’m glad all you ppl cared about me. Well I felt that way. As I do you. Thanks also for adding me in the stories as they were fun and funny. They helped feel ok in my darkest of times alone, self sabotaging and […]
I wanted to write, but now I can’t think of the words. Im trying to stay positive and move forward. I admit I took a few steps back, but Im looking for a brightside, trying to keep my head up. But I worry. Worry about my actions and what I want. I wish I had the words so this post would make sense.
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