My life is a miserable hell. Â I should have been dead like 5 years ago when my life was over. Â My survival instinct pisses me off. Â Why is it so hard to kill yourself?
Since I’m an agnostic atheist I don’t believe in god because I have no reason to. Â All I know exists is the physical world. Â My brain is who I am. Â Once my brain dies then that’s the end of me as far as I can tell. Â Thinking about this fact is equally depressing and frightening at the same time. Â I’ll probably commit suicide sometime this year once I get the proper tools and courage. Â Fuck my life. Â Can anyone relate to this thought process?
I wish I never came into existence. Â Now I have to do the dirty job of killing myself to end this misery.
We really need to bring these into existence. Â There’s too much pointless suffering that goes on in this world. Â Some people just want to end it.
My mental state is pure agony and torture. Â I need to end this suffering. Â But I continue on in hopes somehow I’ll get better. Â Knowing full well it won’t. Â I’m living in denial because my survival instinct is so strong.
And it doesn’t help that no one believes you when you say you believe you’re poisoned. Â I’m tired of dealing with all these incompetent doctors who don’t know a thing about mercury toxicity. Â I’m tired of being labeled “schizophrenic” and “delusional” simply because I believe I’m poisoned. Â It’s beyond frustrating. Â I’ve read stories throughout this website about people talking about dealing with diseases that doctors don’t recognize as real. Â For example, Chronic lyme, Chronic Fatigue, Â Permanent sexual problems from medications. Â I’m just so so fucking tired of this shit…. Â I need a way out but I need to make sure it’ll work.
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I wish I could live a full happy life. Â You know, get married, have kids and all that jazz. Â But I don’t think it’s feasible. Â I think I need to end things soon and stop delaying the inevitable. Â Thoughts?
So if I can I want to make a living will that basically says if I’m in a vegetative state I want the plug pulled. Â Like if I theoretically shot myself in the head or jumped off a cliff/building or got in a random car accident and ended up brain-dead but not completely dead I’d want my organs donated and the plug pulled and pumped full of morphine to pass away peacefully.
I’m awaiting your informing replies folks. Â Take care. Â I’m off to work for now.
Me: Â Chronic mercury toxicity not helped by modern medicine because they don’t recognize chronic mercury poisoning as a serious disease.
A mangy cat gets a painless/peaceful death yet I’m denied that right? Â Fuck you humans, where’s the god damn mother fucking asteroid I wanted?
It would honestly be what’s best for all of us. Â I’m not anti-humanity I’m just anti-suffering. Â I think a lot of pointless suffering could be avoided if we all died. Â Perhaps the next sentient species wouldn’t be as ignorant and wicked as humans were.
How the fuck did letmesleep get his shotgun? Â I’d love to have a shotgun to blow my brains out with! Â ^_^
I recently have been looking at gore just to see what my corpse will look like if I decide to blow my brains out. Â It’s not exactly pretty and it makes it that much more real. Â The reality of suicide is pretty intense and final. Â What are your thoughts about gore and the finality of death?
I’m not sure if I am. Â I mean, I had an incredible childhood and all but the last few years have been hellish. Â I need to end this misery soon or I’ll end up in a mental institution. Â I’d say overall though that I’m glad I was born. Â If I wasn’t born I’d never know my amazing family and friends. Â But it all comes to an end eventually. Â So I’m thinking I kinda wish I was never born into this fucked up world..
But what if you were born in some third world country where all your life was suffering and pain? Â I’d probably wish I […]
I hope he’s finally at peace. Â I hope there’s an afterlife where I can meet him in person.
As an atheist I realize how futile life and everything in the universe is. Â I realize that even in death there’s no peace. Â The totalitarian controllers of this world won’t let us leave peacefully. Â They want us to stay alive and suffer until the bitter end. Â Once labeled “mentally ill” they won’t even let you buy a gun to end things painlessly. Â I will continue my search for barbiturates though to attain a peaceful death. Â I actually have a lead to get some phenobarbital on the silk road. Â We’ll see how this works out. Â Hope you guys are doing better than I am..
That’d suck if you killed yourself to end your suffering but ended up reincarnating into one of the death camps in North Korea or something. Â I think once you die though that’s it though.
The bible is mostly bullshit.  But the book of Ecclesiastes has some great wisdom in it.  It was written by King Solomon as he was dying and realized the futility of the world.  Here’s a great verse.  I’m sure you guys can relate.
1Again, I observed all the oppression that takes place under the sun. I saw the tears of the oppressed, with no one to comfort them. The oppressors have great power, and their victims are helpless. 2So I concluded that the dead are better off than the living. 3But most fortunate of all are those who are not yet born. For they have not seen […]
The last 6 years of my life have been an absolute hell.  A hell within my own mind/body.  But hell nonetheless.  I feel like I need to make a decision to end my suffering soon or end up in hell for the next 60 years.  Fate has chosen how my life will end up.  Please tell me there’s more to life than this.  God dammit this reality is so fucked up.
I’m reading about how it’s the second most popular method in Hong Kong. Â Right after jumping. Â Here’s a study. Â http://bjp.rcpsych.org/content/186/1/67.full
I think I’m gonna go for it.
*Note: I’m not condoning suicide or this particular method I’m just curious if it’s worth trying. Â I don’t want to fuck something up like suicide. Â This is for harm reduction purposes.