How do i change my profile picture on here ?
Im tired of all this fucking shit. all these people. I hate this world. I hate being stupid and trying so hard to catch up and create opportunities for myself. I hate my home. it’s tense most of the time. I can’t do shit. i want to go back to college but then i find myself struggling and being sad for not being able to make friends. I come from a tough background and these white rich kids have been given everything to them. it sucks. i hate my life. i want to end it. i haven’t cut in about a month and […]
Everytime i try to stop i fail…. i keep cutting. i’ll be clean for two weeks and then i do it again.. i have anxiety.. and depression. I like to cut sometimes… and bleed. sometimes i wonder if i just cut deep enough. and overdose on pills i’d have WHAT i WANT. … WHAT i neeed….. Maybe one day/… but up to now.. im at 4 pillss… strong pills.. all i need is to go far away…. isolate myself… and KILL MYSELF. . i truley love him as well….. but he doesnt know.
I wish I would have ran across the field towards that trailer just to end thing. By my school a new building is being built… I wish i could go on top…. and just fall and end things. …I hate myself sooo much…
i Hate him..but i love him. he has a GF..and im supposely his best friend…. which i agreed until … like 3 Â months ago…I mean.. we had this fight.. but now he thinks everything is normal since we’re on good terms. yet i see him treating other girls the way he treats me…. just like a friend. Â i feel like he doesnt care about me… . I HATE HER Â she treats him like shit. but WATEVER. im waiting for the fucking day yu cry again. cuz i wont hold yu…
your so fucking selfsih. i hate you so much. how unfortunate that you are in all of my classes you fat rat. all the harm you have done will come back to you. karma is a *****.
i wonder how many people who have said they were going to commit suicide…. have actually died.
people hate. people want to bring me down. FOR WHO I AM AND HOW I ACT. they say i bring people down. first of all you do not know me so check yourself again. i really wannaa be out of this world. im hopping something will someday do the trick and end up killing me. becuz the only thing stopping me is believing that i might go to hell. i still cut .. its an addiction. you see i cut because i wish i wasnt me. and thats hard to deal with. especially when your arent pretty with a perfect smile. my past is what […]
She walked forward.. things rushing through her head.
shes one out of 7 billion people….
her long hair swiveling as she moves..
no face is seeen… only her back.. she keeps walking..
they call her name.. so she starts speed walking..
they call her again and she starts running..
she screams…. as she holds the knife…
she turnss her head….
full of tears and bloood.
full black eyes… pale with trembling lips..
and then EVERYTHING BLACKS OUT..
is she dead? maybe… is she in  a mental hospital probably..
is it weird that all of my past will never leave my mind… my childhoood was horrible being bullied. parents fighting….. trying to be happy. my grades are really good like always.. … and then there is him. mr. flirty-shy guy … he doesnt flirt alot. but .. yeaa. idk wat i did wrong. we dnt talk like we used too.. Â ehh.
I still cut tho… unfortunately ive tried to stop but its too addicting… its beeen almossttt 3 yeaarss. that ive been cutting… sometimes i stop for a week. or 2 months but it comes back.. Â any remedies to get over a crush?? Â ANY?????? Â any […]
i feeeel so alone D: like… my personality is blahh -.- unfixable. :/ what can i doooo??? so i can interact with people… like what do i do WRONG?????????????????
i feel happy. a certain person is making me happy(: Â . but it feels to goood to be true.. nd im getting sadd,,, getting madd. telling myself. dat being sad has been a habit. nd dat happinesss doesnt exist for me.. … i feeel horrible,,,, ughh….
Stupid… shes so dumb. when shes not there. she hangs out with me. OKAY FAKE friend,… shes always trying to be friends with everyone. all the things ive done for her. nd im tired OF IT. TIRED OF IT. Â she sits with me and we laugh nd then shes all ditching me later on . LIKE GETT OFF THAT.. i hate when people use me… but im getting her back. nd then the other girl i talk to . psssh. shes hanging out more with her noww…,.. nd lying to me and stufff… i went to eat alone. … today. i was alone. looking out […]
my cutts my pain. no one notices. no one cares. thats good. but its like a disease.. its spreading. and its an addiction.
my friend could carelesss. her new friend .. gives me dirty looks. sorry for speaking my mind? i like to speak my mind.. even when i should keep things to myself. but this is wat bullying did to me.. im now me. because of those kids.. im mean. and sentimental. i like being mean. it gives me power. Â im always smiling and laughing. but inside… inside WE ARE ALL DYING… i cant sleep sometimes. i go to sleep crying. i dnt believe […]