vieve

help, the world is drowning me.

at least once a week I’m heavily reminded of how the men around me view me, and I can’t take it anymore

when I was in a different country with a different culture I was so happy–no one made degrading sexualized comments in professional settings, no one used their friendship with me to get access to my body, the one time a stranger grabbed my ass at a bar he was immediately kicked out by the bouncers.

when I was growing up I was told I could be so much more and I wanted it and I believed it;

I thought I could be […]

I need to get out of here.

I can’t live here anymore. I’m here, but when I was last here I was just a ghost. Now I’m a real person again, but I can feel her presence, existing in my peripheral, tugging at me, lapping at me like a tide. I can’t be alive here at the same time that my ghost lingers.

I was away for months and it felt so good. I was like a phoenix reborn, but better. i was a vivacious and inspiring and unstoppable woman. I was so smart for the first time in years. my head was clear and I pulverized […]

hi, hello

do any of you have anxiety? ptsd? etc?

what do you do when you’re doing all of the right things and you’re trying so hard but nothing gets better? well, maybe there are brief periods of “better,” but then the slightest thing crumples your shield and you feel more vulnerable than ever and you just know that something bad’s going to happen. all of the deep breaths and chamomile tea and lavender candles in the world can’t help. you’re right back where you started, scared and shaking and you can’t remember the last 3 years of your life.

anyway, how do you feel better? I hope you […]