I can’t do any of this anymore. I tried so hard to do something new, to make myself happy. And guess what? It blew up in my f*cking face. Excuse the language. So, now I can’t see my best friend without wanting to cry my heart out. Long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend because I wasn’t happy, in general (not unhappy with him) and wanted space. Then, I find out my best friend is in love with me. A couple weeks later he has me wrapped around his little f*cking finger. Guess what I find out two days ago? He doesn’t want […]
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I want to die. I do. I don’t know why, but I’m contemplating it seriously right now. I know I can’t fucking be that selfish but I don’t know what else to do. I want to do something…I want to hurt myself. I’m so lost and alone right now, someone please talk to me…It sounds dumb, but I’m so scared to die… Please help…?
I just want to fucking die. I hate myself so much by this point. I have no fucking reason to be sad, I have everything I could ever want and still I lay in bed wondering why I’m still here. I want to have a life, but I can’t keep going like this. I thought I was in bad shape before, it’s even worse now. Night terrors are waking me up every hour, Insomnia is keeping me awake until the point of complete and utter exhaustion, Depression is giving me crying spells, G.A.D is keeping me in my “safe places” which have been reduced to […]
I don’t understand any of it anymore. I have no reason to have such vivid dreams of dying. I’m in a happy relationship. I’m not in a bad financial situation. I haven’t had anything bad happen recently. So, why in fuck’s sake am I waking up from nightmares that feel so real? I fall asleep, then feel like I’m awake and then proceed to kill myself in some way. And just before then end I wake up. What kind of weird shit is that? I mean, I haven’t remembered having such a bad dream experience since I dreamt of going back to my childhood and […]
I woke up today at 3 am. My phone decided it’s on silent, and has no alarms, but will go off anyway. I laid in bed for a good two hours. Then, I rolled over and laid there some more. My brother came downstairs, but I pretended to be asleep because I didn’t want to try and talk to him. After another twenty minutes, I got up to get dressed. Barely upstairs for a minute before my mom gets pissed. Apparently when she said today worked for her to take me for a haircut, she meant Thursday. Excuse me for being confused at that. Now, […]
To My Sweetheart,
I know sometimes we fight a lot. Sometimes, I don’t listen as well as I should. Sometimes, I wish I just knew what you were thinking so I could know how to fix things. But, more than anything, I need you to remember just how much I love you. I fell in love with you about nine months ago, and I never thought you would be mine. And when you did, I almost converted just to thank someone for giving me the greatest creation ever imaginable. You’re so amazing, and I want you to know that you can tell me anything in the […]
I am sixteen years old. For three years I’ve been rail-roaded with problems. Depression. Self-harm. Bullying. Suicidal thoughts. Everyone tells me “It gets better.” but when I’m lying alone in bed, afraid of everything, I don’t see much hope. Since second grade, I’ve been picked on by everyone from my “best friend” to someone I just met to people I don’t even know. I’ve tried going to school counselors and in all my visits, only once was it not my fault. I got to eighth grade, and I was called a(n) dyke, lesbian, homo, freak, whore, *****, slut, nerd, emo, fag, and many other names. […]