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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

by broken_angel81 9/6/2013

written by broken_angel81

Nothing will ever be the same again. I’m broken and can’t be fixed. You promised you’d never leave me, promised you loved me. Made me trust you, made me feel safe. Now you’re gone I’m empty. People tell me it will get easier, I’ll move on and be happy again but they don’t know how I’m feeling. I don’t want to move on, I don’t want to be happy again. I don’t deserve to be. I had a family and I lost it, I had it taken from me. Nothing’s ever going to be okay again.

9/6/2013 3 comments

Assault

by ramsay 9/5/2013

written by ramsay

I was molested. It makes me feel like a whore. Disgusting. Absolutely worthless, and I want to tell my best friend so badly. But I don’t know if it will actually do me any good. It was years ago, what do I expect her to say?

9/5/2013 7 comments

my life

by colonialsgirl33 9/5/2013

written by colonialsgirl33

i’m new here so i’ll do a run down on my life.
my family has always had a problem with depression. most of my family has died from either suicide or cancer. growing up pretty much knowing i was gonna be depressed sucked. it was always so hard for me to find friends. i was always the “weird fat kid” that no one wanted to be around. my family (in my eyes) was always pretty and skinny and very popular. my cousin who was my age was always noticed, while i was always looked over and ignored. when i was in 2nd grade was […]

9/5/2013 2 comments

Crappy birthday to me….

by PainNlife 9/5/2013

written by PainNlife

Another year has passed…..another miserable 365 days….so what that makes me…..8035 fucking days old…. I’ve been absolutely wretched for almost a third of that time…….just pathetic……..Today is my birthday and I feel fucking horrible…..I’m 22…..and I fucking hate it…..Another fucking year further from my treasured memories…..I don’t want to celebrate…..I don’t want any gifts…..I don’t want to be sung happy birthday to unless you replace “happy” with “crappy” then I guess its acceptable….I don’t want anything except to lay in my bed and dream I’m back in 2002 in Ms.Lagranges class. I couldn’t even cry….As much as I want to I feel more shame than […]

9/5/2013 21 comments

Knowing a Stranger?

by theforgottenfew 9/5/2013

written by theforgottenfew

It’s strange…
When you have never met, or even spoken to a person…yet you feel like on some level you already know them.
It may be you feel that way because of things that someone tells you about them,
or it may be because in a way you know what they are going through.
You know them through someone else’s correspondence with them,
because you try to reassure the person that loves this stranger you feel you know.
You feel helpless…because you wish you could tell that person how much they are loved by someone, yet you can’t.
You feel useless because with all the […]

9/5/2013 0 comment

Sigh

by JBearA7X 9/5/2013

written by JBearA7X

Lifer hurts. I need to find someone to listen to me, someone who is going through this too. Â Have you ever

9/5/2013 5 comments

Late night thoughts

by JBearA7X 9/5/2013

written by JBearA7X

It’s 11:47 and I suffer, I hurt, and I cry. The only guy who cares I can’t be with, I’m losin my bestfriend I talked to her about everything what do I do now? I broke and cut again and again. Wrote another suicide note..

9/5/2013 3 comments

Fear

by hellblau 9/4/2013

written by hellblau

Sometimes it’s faded, disintegrated, for fear of growing old.
Sometimes it’s faded, assassinated, for fear of growing old.
Hang on, though I try.
It’s gone.
Can’t stop growing old.

9/4/2013 0 comment

Not sure if I’m doing this right

by alone131 9/4/2013

written by alone131

I honestly have no idea what I’m doing or if anyone will be able to read this I just want to get some feelings out. I’m 32 and my mom at me when she was just 15 years old she did everything she could to raise me and my brother by herself ( our father is a crackhead who repeatedly abused her, she was forced to marry him due to her age). No matter what I went through from falling out of a tree when I was 7 to my multiple surgeries on my knee and my failed back surgery on my back which led […]

9/4/2013 3 comments

The Truth

by sleeplessinSTL 9/4/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I want the truth. I know that I’m really unhealthy. My stomach is acting up and so are my lungs. I’m not in the hospital, but I’ve been to the doctor’s office a few times. My adoptive mum says I’m slowly getting better.

I’m not though. I know it. I can tell when she’s lying. She’ll look anywhere but your face, twiddle her thumbs, and over explain. Check, Check, Check.

The truth is, I know I’m probably going to die. Wow, it’s weird saying that, but I am. If I don’t shape up and get over this stuff, I’ll won’t recover. It’s not easy. I haven’t really […]

9/4/2013 4 comments

Vengeance

by quaero 9/4/2013

written by quaero

This is all that they have in their soul. they were pushed and forced upon their whole life, so they want you too to be pushed and forced upon. they can’t see you happy, joyful, free. it hurts their suffered ego. and let me tell you very clearly: this includes their own children too. its ok as long as you are following the pattern set by them or by society, but the moment you shakes it up a bit or get out of it everybody looses his mind. wasted 4 years in engineering college and nobody gave a shit, but decided to take some rest […]

9/4/2013 2 comments

Recovery Isn’t Real

by outsp0ken 9/4/2013

written by outsp0ken

I just don’t think I can do it anymore. I’ve been suffering with dysthymia since the seventh grade almost and fifteen now, but last night I think did me over completely. My family and I got into a huge altercation last night that led to words being said that I’d never thought I’d hear outside my own mind. “You’re crazy, *****, you ruin everything, I don’t want anything to do with you” “You ruined my life” (coming from my own mother). I used to tell myself these things in my mind. Along with fat, slut, stupid, and ugly. But I just thought maybe it’s all […]

9/4/2013 1 comment

Tristeza

by theforgottenfew 9/3/2013

written by theforgottenfew

I met a girl on here who has become a very good friend to me. She is so sweet, kind, and honest. I haven’t known her long but I feel so lucky to have made a friend like her. Things are difficult sometimes for each of us in different ways but we are able to help each other through them. I know there’s a reason she was put in my life and even though I live so far from her I feel closer to her than I have to so many people that live in my town that claim to be my friends. I struggle […]

9/3/2013 12 comments

get out

by maxthebat 9/3/2013

written by maxthebat

Get out of my life.

Get. The. Fuck. Out.

you broke my heart. you left me. you decided i wasn’t good enough for you and left. fine, i knew i wouldn’t last. But i never thought you’d stab me in the back like that, we were best friends. BEST. FUCKING. FRIENDS.

fine. you can get out of my life but once you decide to leave, DON’T COME BACK. I’ve given you way to many chances, you undeserving ****. Stay or go, not both. Be my friend or pretend you don’t know me. At this point, i don’t care which one. Just don’t keep affecting my life. Don’t keep […]

9/3/2013 2 comments

Today was great

by sazzabrah 9/3/2013

written by sazzabrah

Today has been better, actually today has been great. I know I’m having hard times at the moment but the amount of support I’m getting is amazing. I have amazing people in my life and I thank the world so much that I have them there.

Oh plus I got Captain Hook in Peter Pan!!!!!!

Ahhh can’t contain my excitement!

Much love to everyone ! Xx

9/3/2013 0 comment

Tonight

by babygirl0614 9/2/2013

written by babygirl0614

Nothing has changed. Me and my mom took a little break from each other thinking it would help to bring down the tension. It got all worse and almost got violent. My mom says she is afraid to hit me one minuet and then swings at me the next.Â She complains I don’t do anything at the house. I DO EVERYTHING ! She just sits on the couch and drinks and complains. I can understand my mom has a lot of stress on her. She is a teacher but she does not need to bring all her crap on me. This year is my year […]

9/2/2013 1 comment

Why did my mom keep me ?

by babygirl0614 9/2/2013

written by babygirl0614

why did my mom keep me. Cant she see she isn’t cut out for having Â a 13 year old? She has all these mental problems. She drinks almost every night and threatens me. I have done nothing to her and she said she wants to hurt me or give me to my dad. whats the point of being here ifÂ my mom doesn’t want me.

9/2/2013 5 comments

What could have stopped my birth

by sleeplessinSTL 9/2/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

My mom and dad were teenagers, and a simple, “Wait, let me get a condom,” could have stopped me from being born. That would’ve saved the DSS a whole lot of trouble.

9/2/2013 7 comments

This is what it’s like

by sazzabrah 9/2/2013

written by sazzabrah

So you want to know what it’s like? What it really feels like, without the sugar coating.

Well it’s simple it’s painful.

When you find out you sit there for at least ten minutes, your mouth wide open like a goldfish. Oh but your not breathing, your in shock. You can’t believe it, you just sit and stare, unable to move or do anything. Then it starts to sink in and your breathing again but too fast you start to feel dizzy, then you start shaking. Then the tears come and they come fast, you can’t control them they pour and pour out of your […]

9/2/2013 7 comments

Screw this

by sleeplessinSTL 9/1/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

Cancer is a *****. It ruins every fucking thing there is in life. When you hear that someone you care about has cancer, you loose it. I fucking broke a coffee table and punched a window. A FUCKING WINDOW. And then, after your friends family spends basically all their money on treatment, cancer keeps living. Why? Why the fuck does this happen?

I’ve fucking lost it, I’m so goddamn incapable of doing anything right now. I don’t know whether I should just kill myself or just run away again. I can’t stand the looks I get and all the motherfucking people. I’m just done. I can’t […]

9/1/2013 9 comments

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